28 December 2010

10 December 2010


I'm back! hehehe.. but am not sure for how long. i'd been hiding in my crib this 3 months without any connection to the net. So this is just a quick update from me:

  1. I had started working in KP Guar since mid of August. My first time working. I stayed there for 2 weeks before being send to HSAH for attachment with the OMF team. KPGC was find although it took me 30 minutes drive via highway to arrive there. working there made me realize that teeth extraction skills are very importante!!!! why didn't i learned properly in school last time. regret!! regret!!
  2. Working in OMF, HSAH was awesome. I had a lots of friends there. i had my dear senior Dr Amy, Laili and Ita. All my colleagues were awesome plus friendly plus helpful. I really appreciate them. The staffs there was super duper helpful, they guide me when i'm out of thought. Even the specialist there were super cool. They taught me many things that I can only imagine during my study years.
  3. I met many of my medical colleagues from USM in HSAH
  4. During Ramadhan myconvent batchmate held a small iftar-gathering at Swiss Inn. Not many appeared on that day. But enough to remind us on the memory that we had during school time. Fatni was vey beautiful, haven't met her since graduating from KMK. Lydiawani was super skinny, she's the Jusmate5 model now. Nab was forever and ever cute. Kelly was much thinner now. Fatimah was gorgeous. Seri never get bigger. Ipah was still the same person that i remember. Wanisha was lovely and cute. Farhah is gtting cuter and cuter. Farhana looks different, but still the same Farhana that i know. Nina is getting taller. Yati looks matture on that day. I miss u girls so much. Hope we can organized more meet up later.
  5. Eid Fitri was fun. Though i haven't receive my paycheck yet at that time. Luckily dearest Encik was my accauntant. So he was the one who bought my Baju raya.
  6. My payday was celebrated with 'makan-makan' in Tok's house and Le Boss. Yeay!
  7. Eid Adha was fun too. We held a qurban in the TBR hall in the morning and had BBQ of the meat in the evening.
  8. Went to JB with KT for Noddy's engagement on 20/11/10.  Congratulations dear! Soon u'll be leaving the single lady's club which Sya's still joining now. hahaha. Sya!!! cpt la cari husband!
  9. Finally me, Sya and Noddy were reunited again. I miss u girls so much. Although we didn't have much time (as we are stuck with our hectic working schedule. Hmmm. not my working schedule but u girls' working schedule. hehe) but i really appreciate our meet up. Hope we can do it again. May be before Noddy's wedding?!
  10. After 3 months in HSAH, i received a call that ask me to come back to KPGC.
  11. I missed my schoolmate's aka Syamimi Suib's wedding last Saturday as i was in Shah Alam following dearest Encik for meeting. Sorry Mimi!! Congratulations dear.
  12. Sue's getting married today. The solemnization will be held in KB. Sorry I can't make it dear. Will try to make it on your wedding day
  13. I had lots of wedding to attend this school holiday. Love it!
  14. No new people will be joining my small family in the mean time, which means that i'm not yet pregnant. Which makes me worry, eventhough check up showed that both of were fine. 'Takdak rezeki. lagi' I just hope that people will stop asking me about the good news cause myself will be informing everyone if there was one. =(
That's all from me. I dont know when my next updates gonna be.Muahhx!

    13 August 2010


    i just knew that i'll be posted to Kedah and was asked to register on 16 August 2010. i need to present myself at the head office then they will send me to either Sungai Petani or Alor Setar. how ever, i haven't receive the official letter yet. so let's just wait for the big news.

    09 August 2010


    noorole, noddy and sya

    this is the day that i had been looking forward since i enter my uni life. congratulations everyone. i got the chance to reunite with my 2 bestfriends. noddy and sya. i felts so happy to see them. don't know when will we have the chance to be together like this later. sya is working in HKT now while noddy, she's in Batu Pahat now. anyway, noddy drove her white civic that day ( aku nak tumpang tau nanti)

    it's been 2 months since i left my uni life. since then, i'd become a full time housewife. enjoying my holiday before working life. i had limited access to the internet making me unable to update my blog as often as before. i'll update where i'll be posted later. 

    23 May 2010

    alhamdulillah. i finally made it. after 5 years of study. gallon of tears had been shed, tones of energy had been used. i finally got my degree. my gratitude goes to my family members, friends, doctors, staffs in polyclinic and everyone. please continue to pray that i'll be ok in my working life. 

    i'm not a student anymore! 

    21 May 2010


    Why we left and why we will continue to leave... 
    Posted by: MS Mohamad
    I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.
    After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty

    "Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.
    Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).
    I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.

    I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done.

    When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

    "Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"
    Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:
    “I’m busy with something else"
    “My shift is already over"
    ...it was routine for me.

    The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.

    Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy.

    He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”

    It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week.

    Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.

    The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.

    The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.

    That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?

    It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.

    This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
    A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:
    "The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"
    Another works in Brunei:
    “Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)
    A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):
    "Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".
    A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:
    “The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

    I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?

    I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?

    We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.

    We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
    If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.
    Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).

    copied from The Star Online Blog

    20 May 2010


    congratulations dear! u finally made it. Master in Civil Engineering. 

    03 May 2010

    ...the reason...

    02 May 2010

    DR isya & DR noddy

    congratulation girls. u have become Dr Isya and Dr Noddy now.
    insyaAllah. i will follow your steps soon.

    i guess, there will be no more PJ parties for us.
    no more staying late just to watch movie and gossiping.
    no more staying up, just to make sure we are awake for breakfast at McD.
    no more people to listen to me whining bout  my problems
    no more shopping gila.
    i'm gonna miss both of u badly. huhu..

    thanx for being by my side in this 5 years. love both of u so much. sob sob!

    doakan aku k!

    18 April 2010


    finally!!! u guys made it. alhamdulillah. i pray for your success. my time will come soon. insyaAllah.
    CONGRATULATIONS to all new doctors of USM 2009/2010
    i jeles ni!

    31 March 2010


    under the hot sun!
    i'm just glad that i did not choose engineering as my profession. i don't think i'm born to be one. my trip to Sg Dua, Penang was to see how water fluoridation was done, however, the trip turned out to be more on how water was cleaned before distributed to others. it was a damn hot morning, and we were required to climb all the stairs to visit all the pools.the problem was; we were asked to wear formal attire during this trip, and most of my friend chose to wear baju kurung and heels. while the stubborn me chose to wear pants and shirt. lucky me for being stubborn, it was easier for me to climb the stairs.

    it was a good experience for us. i don't think i will ever visit that place if this trip was not organized.

    10 March 2010

    performed my first minor oral surgery. it was a bad experience. so sad. hope my second one will be better.

    06 March 2010

    went to KFC, Kubang Kerian yesterday with couples of  friends for lunch. was served by this rude waitress name Nurul. i know she's pregnant but do u need to shout at us and throw plates as if we were not there. this branch of KFC really sucks. they serve bad foods; everything with less mayo,  slow serving and  waitress that acts really suck.

    i know that it is not because of her pregnancy that she act rudely, she had been like that just before she is pregnant. i'd been dining at that place frequently since it was open.

    yeah. i know i complain to much and some people would ask me to feels what it is like if i were in their shoes. i can never imagine the exhaustion of working in a 24 hour fast food restaurant. but at that time it was still early, there was not many customer around and it is their job to serve us the customer, why can't u just be polite.

    i know that that incident will not stop me from going to that KFC again cause the location is very near to my place. u are lucky girl cause i did not make a complain to your manager, but who knows sometime u might just not be that lucky anymore.

    06 February 2010


    isaac dhani azam,  turned 1 on 5th of March. his proud mama and papa, annie and ayien, held a party for him at their place. it was a great party cause there was a lot of  food and  adorable Isaac was there. 

     "to isaac, stay cute, make your parent proud in whatever u do okey!"

    the apple's of mommy's eyes

    the aunties, who love to pose; with the family

    praying really hard that it will be my turn soon in becoming a mama!! 

    childish aunties

    thanx annie and ayien for inviting us

    04 February 2010


    upon graduation, we need to learn on how to give oral hygiene education to several groups of people. my group were scheduled to give talks to the children with special needs in Klinik Kesihatn Bunohan, Tumpat; a 45-minutes drive from USM. in the clinic there is a special center where children with disability around Tumpat area gather everyday. they were taught to read, write and how to take care of themselves. it's a learning center for them.

    when we arrived there, we were not quite prepared cause we are the first group who went there. so we didn't really know what to bring and what to do. our mistake was we didn't bring any LCD or laptop cause we assumed that they will prepare it for us. our mistake for expecting things so high. Tumpat is a village area, we should be prepare instead of assuming things. so we learned something there. as a solution, we opt for a traditional way.

    and that is by showing pictures manually and divided each of them into groups so that we can teach them personally on how to take care of their teeth. i was in charge with a group with learning difficulties. i didn't know their actual disease, but i'm assuming some of them had autism or attention deficit or ADHD. cause they looks very normal. but had difficulty to speak and understand. other groups included children with cerebral palsy (CP) and down syndrome's children. i didn't about my friends but i found that it is very hard for me to teach children with learning disability. they didn't look at u or gave u any attention. all they were interested in were the "big teeth" model that i brought.

    most of the children there never have a visit to a dentist. so u can guess how they teeth looks like. crooked anterior teeth and so.with the little knowledge that i had, i try my best to teach them. especially to this lady,who had a 2 years old son. she never cleaned his teeth. so i'm trying my best to teach her cause her son is still young, do we can still take care of the teeth.

    the children brushing their teeth.

    he had a very dedicated father. this child is had CP and grind his teeth a lot. so he got lotsa teeth with attrition.

    some of them came from a poor family, so they came to the center with a van. the van's owner only charge them half price. a kind man i believe, it's very hard to find a person who did things for free nowadays.

    they look normal ain't they?! some of them aged more than 20

    i had a lots of fun with them. looking forward for more activities like this in the future....

    03 February 2010


    we organized a school's oral health day in SMK Kemumin Pengakalan Chepa last week. it was a 3 days event. there was exhibitions, dental check up and 1Malaysia Smile contest.

    just arrived

    the school

    dental check up on the mobile clinic

    dental hygiene education where we taught them on how to brush and floss correctly.

    i love this kind of activity cause i can be away from clinic for sometime, although i  really hate the preparation part. this kind of program helps me to gain confident in myself. from this program i learned that becoming a teacher is a very tough job. as it is a school from a village area. the kids there are quite a tough block, they hardly listen to anyone. i see teachers bringing caine to the class. i see teacher hit them with a 'rotan', it was very interesting cause i never see this kind of act in my school, but still the students act as it was nothing.

    ouh. i wonder how my friends are doing in the schools now. i hope they are find cause i know it's getting tougher to teach kids nowaday. all the best friends. i really respect your passion in becoming a teacher.

    02 February 2010


    Alhamdulillah. i finally manage to issue my first fixed prosthodontic case which is an anterior post core. it was made to support root treated tooth. it was quite hard to find a suitable case for this, cause we really need a perfect obturated tooth for post. hah! it's probably very hard for others to understand what i'm saying, but the thing is that i'm so happy cause, satu requirement sudah kurang. 

    now, i can worry about my bridge case.

    i made a countdown for my professional 3 exam. so for today, 102 days left til pro exam. 

    so much things to be settled, requirement, reports. i can't wait to graduate. please god, help me by making things easier for me!!

    24 January 2010


    alhamdulillah. we had reached our first year as hubby and wife. i love u

    06 January 2010


    my friend's sis is selling bracelet via blog now.
    please stop by and have a look!!

    01 January 2010


    new year feels the same for me. it doesn't make any changes at all. it's just another flip to a new calendar, a new diary to be filled and a new organizer to fill in with patient's appointment. last night was celebrated with dear TV and Angah. nothing much. i never appreciate new year. i never even celebrate it. but during previous new years, it's a MUST for me to make new year resolutions., but for this new year i only had one, hm... probably two. first of all I WANNA GRADUATE! i have enough of life here. i wanna finish my study and work and have my own money. i envy my friends who's already leaving their title as students.

    however, 2009 did make a lots of impact in my life. my wedding!!! ngeee~ it's gonna hit one year soon. i'm married at 22 which i never ever imagine. well. u can only plan your life, and God is the one who fix everything. Sayang. i love u till the end!

    some of my close friends changed their status too. Yattea & Paly, Ain Roslan, Kema & Khai, Watai, Izyan, Ceah Fasihah.

    also i went to Singapore, to visit my grandfather who i haven't seen for almost 10 years with Sayang and Tok. it was our honeymoon plus meeting relatives trip. well, who on earth brought their grandma on their honeymoon's trip aite?!

    i enter my final year, in 2009, which seems forever when i was in first year. i need to manage my own patient, answering all the questions by supervisors alone, without a partner to help me. i even need to clean all the instruments used on my own, which makes me leave the clinic at 6 pm almost everyday. it sucks ok! can't wait to move my butt off this school soon! everyone, please pray that my journey will be safe!!!

    goodbye 2009. i'm hoping for a better 2010. insyaAllah.