31 December 2008


tomorrow dah 2009. i hope 2009 bring me more wealth and health. i hope i can fulfill my requirement and graduate by june 2010. everyone please pray for my my success. i hope i will be able to do my work faster. i'm such a slow poke. i hope i'll be more skillfull and make less mistake. so that i will be scold less by all the specialist.

anyway. there's less than 1 month til my wedding. i can't believe that in less than one month time i will become Puan Nurul Fahizha. sounds funny. but it's gonna be true soon. dup dap dup dap. im scare when thinking of the responsiblity of being a wife, a daughter in law, a sister  in law. takutnya. i will have a new family.

my school friend cik izyan farhana will be getting married on the same day of i am. tiru tiru. then i can't be on your wedding then.

i hope all my friends are able to make it to my wedding. i  miss all of them especially those from my class in 5J 2003. i miss school time. except for the school uniform and the exam.

i'm still trying to flatten up my tummy. i look thin. but my tummy is so not flat. any tips anyone? i want flat tummy before my wedding. i don't wanna look like a pregnant woman on my wedding.

hm..it's already end of december and i haven't recieve my scholar. im dying out of money now. usm is killing me. they should think about us who rely on the scholar 100%. time nak mintak duit org nak cepat2. time nak duit dia lambat2. so unfair!!!

dup dap dup dap. wish me luck.

happy new year. my resolution are to have a better life and to become a better person than what i'd been before.

13 December 2008


last Thursday i did my first conservative treatment (or better known as filling) on my patient who is also my friend here. i plan to do only one filling on one tooth because that was my first time doing. after doing the x-ray of all thet teeth, my supervisor asked me to do 2 filling on 2 different tooth instead. because the x-ray shows that the tooth next to the indicated tooth was also infected.

so i drilled of the infected area or better known as caries area. showed it to my supervisor. i need to correct the cavity preparation for a few times before i can finally restore it with amalgam ( the black thing u use for filling).

when i was about to show the well prepared cavity, suddenly my patient complained that she cannot closed her mouth completely. i panicked. i don't know what to do. my supervisor was busy listening to my friend's case presentation. i could not disturb her. for about 15 minutes, my patient was unable to close her mouth completely. can u imagine how it feels when u are unable to close your mouth. for 15 minutes????

when  my supervisor came to see my patient, her jaw can already be closed completely. but when she checked the movement of her jaw, it was slightly deviated. so my supervisor asked everybody in the group what will u do if somehow our patient experienced that problem or better known as locked jaw during the treatment?? all of us were quiet. so she gives me assignment  that ought to be presented to her this Sunday. 
so this is what i found.

    There are different causes of lock jaw and the cause determines treatment. Tetanus is an acute infection caused by a bacillus and characterized by spasmodic contractions of the jaw muscles. With a tetanus infection, incorrect diagnosis leads to death. The most common cause is spasm and shortening of the jaw muscles. Muscle spasm is treated with moist heat and TMJ exercises to loosen the muscles. With muscle spasm, the lower jaw can slide laterally but not open.
          Sometimes lock jaw happens after a dental injection, when an anaesthetic is accidentally injected into the jaw muscle. If the spasm is from dental infection, it should be treated aggressively. An abscessed tooth makes pus which may extend into the jaw muscles causing muscle spasm and inflammation.
          If a jaw opens and won't close, it's due to a forward dislocation of the jaw joint. The joint pops forward and out of place and won't go back. It's treated by firmly gripping the lower jaw and rocking it downward and backward until it pops in place. This problem can occur after yawning or remaining open for a long dental appointment. A closed lock jaw can be from anterior dislocation of the TMJ disc.        
         Locking can occur after an overdose of phenothiazines or in some neurological disorders especially in the basal ganglia. Patients who experience lock jaw often have regular headaches and neck aches. There is often a history of head and neck trauma and these patients often grind their teeth. Massage therapy and TMD treatment can help.

so about my patient, my supervisor adviced her to compress her TMJ with warmed towel and practise opening her mouth at certain limit. she must control her mouth opening during laughing or yawning so that she won't experienced the problem again. 

actually before i started treatment I'd checked on my patient TMJ (that's a routine to us) and both side were clicking on opening. i thought that it may be my fault as she had to open her mouth for a long period but during the treatment i noticed that she didn't open her mouth too big. and i didn't forced her to open it bigger. so maybe it was my fault or may be the problem was already there, i just make it worse. hoho.

luckily that patient is someone that i know. so she didn't sue me. haha. for me who knows the patient before the treatment, i know that she had the habit to yawn as wide as she can. memang dah tak senonoh dah dia nie. haha. no offenced  girl! 

12 December 2008


i bump into an old friends which i haven't seen for years. she was in the same class with me during junior high but was in different classes in high school. somehow we were still close. we always went out for movies together with bunch of other friends. after we finished our high school we seems to be lost contact. i can't remember the last time i saw here. we seems busy with our own life. and to be honest i don't event have her phone number. i know where her house is but an incident that happend once there make me feels unwelcomed. several friends did asked about her latest news but of course my answer was "i don't know".

she was with her mom and sis, looking friendly. i was stumb to see her. i don't have any idea what to say. luckily my mother and my sister was there. i did try to relax myself but i failed. i keep avoiding looking straight into here eyes without knowing the reasons. i don't know whether she noticed my nervousness. she was calmed. my mother mentioned about my wedding and invite the whole family. she said she knew bout it. i felt guilty because i don't have any idea what happens with her life. i hope she can make it to my wedding though. . i wanted to ask for her number but i doubt myself.

i was not sure whether she will give it because she want to or because i was asking for it in front of her mother. finally i didn't ask.we end our meeting with just hugs and byes.
i didn't ask because it seems like she was running away from me. the last time i tried to reach her via friendster, i was ignored. after that i never tried to contact her anymore.

to u my dear old friend,
i hope u can make it to my wedding. most of our friends will be there. and to be honest to u that moment we met was an akward moments for me. i hope u didn't notice my nervousness. i hope u contact me via friendster or e-mail. i don't think it's wrong for us to still be friends eventhough i know that our thinking and lifestyle are a total different now. i think i miss u.

11 December 2008


last weekend was damn busy for me. i went home on Thursday night. then arrive home around 4 am. on friday i went out with my dearest sis. on Saturday i went for kursus kawen with Angah. so now both of us are allow to get married. but only after we had passed the HIV test. nak kawen pon susah. so many procedure to go through before we can get marry. actually i'm the only who wanna get marry. angah teman ja.
me and angah at the kursus kawen at Hassani (dapat royalty tak kalau i sebut nama Hassani Management kat sini??!) it's rm80 and dapat pen free. hehe
during the course. the ustaz was explaining something about marriage procedure in Kedah
angah and me having lunch at Oldtown. hmm. baju kurung in town. may be it's a normal thing for certain people but for us it was damn weird.
 this is me and Sayang. we were looking for the wedding ring and yes, Habib was having their year end sale at that time. 
the lovely miss from Habib. sian sibok layan kami yang banyak tanya. the picture was purposely blurred. it won't be special if i show it here. lucky me i got small fingers. if not then we will have to go to more shops. 
hari raya qurban was fun. everyone was there. semua org balik kampung. most of us wore green baju raya this time. this was me and arash yang super duper active. he was tired sbb main byk sangat. i was trying to upload video of him playing around but the wireless was too slow. i give up. u'll fell in love with him once u saw his act. if u noticed now that arash dah botak. ikot rambut abang fairuz ek? hmm. it's gonna be my last raya before i get married.
mama and arash sayang
the second day of raya our taman held a qurban. 4 ekor lembu sudah tumbang. i went to help on the preparation before cooking. this are the meat before being cooked.
angah and me 
kak teh and kak ngah pandai makan ja!

hani aka yong, my cousin. ayukah?

bihun sup tulang. damn sedap!!
selamat hari raya kurban. now im already back in the place known as Kelantan. back with busy life. back with clinic and stuffs. anyway. i'll be back for x-mas. not to celebrate. but to settle off lotsa things. and hoping to see my friends yg balik kampung time tu. i some how ur back just tell me. we'll arrange a small gath before i get married. hehe

10 December 2008



01 December 2008


today i had a 16 y.o patient that request her teeth to be extracted. the tooth had caries. it can still be restore. we even offer her to do RCT. so that we can safe her tooth. but i don't know why, she still opt for extraction. it's not that there is no other option.

in my heart i was thinking that may be this patient did not had the knowledge. may be she think that there will be a new tooth to replace that tooth.

to everyone out there. i would like to make it clear that we, human are only given with 2 sets of teeth. one set is the small teeth u had during childhood. and then during adulthood u had your permanent teeth. that is why it is called as permanent tooth or gigi kekal. it is because there won't be a replacement after u lost that set of teeth. u can only replace them by denture or bridge or maybe implant. but that won't be similar to the original one.
primary teeth (courtesy of http://www.medicinenet.com)
permanent teeth (courtesy of http://www.studiodentaire.com)
so. please!!! take care of you teeth. if u are 16 and u already starting to extract your teeth. how many teeth will left by the time u reach 40??


i had spicy trio noodle in Noodle Station. it was so damn delicious. saya dah tak mengidam lagi. hehe. it sound as if i am pregnant pulak. yummy!! i loike!!!

28 November 2008


recently i'd been craving for slurpy foods like spagheti, laksa and other type of noodles. but due to shortage of money. huhu. i only ate maggi. ada sesapa tak yang nak belanja i
i'm not pregnant anyway. i just feels like eating.
i miss home though. another one week of clinic to go before i go home.
next week i can do extraction or better known as exodontia aka exo in short. cant wait. i love exo. i love giving injections. hihi

27 November 2008


my clinic hour this week is waisted just like that. on sunday, my prostho patient didn't turn up. when i called her, her husband said she is having fever and cannot come to clinic. i have to give her another appointment then. 
then on monday, yeay!! my patient, conservative patient did turn up. i'm so damn excited because i'll be doing my first restorative procedure on him. i choose to do a class 3 filling to his anterior teeth because it is the easiest compared to other classes. when i showed the teeth that i'm going to work on to my supervisor, she noticed a really big big filling at the cervical area. there was a new caries already developed at the restoration. in my heart i was screaming why didn't i notice that before, it was very obvious.
then my supervisor asked me to excavate that old restoration off because it was very big. when i finish scooping it off, i noticed that the previous dentist made a really really bad restoration. the tooth is already dead. what a stupid dentist, now i have to continue and repair your foolish job.
after showing the excavated tooth to the lecturer, she said that that tooth is not worth to be restored as it was already dead. so i am left with 2 options, either to extract or do root canal treatment to the tooth. i choose extraction because it is way easier than doing RCT.
so my patient has hypertension and i had to monitor the BP first. it was 180/120 mmHg, there is no way i can extract that tooth. so i consulted a surgeon and ask my patient to wait for 30 minutes before checking on his BP again. it was 188/126. it was damn high.
now im left with RCT. but the tooth was to mobile and so not worth of saving. i asked my supervisor again what should i do. i cant extract. i cant do RCT. and i cant just leave the tooth opened. so my supervisor asked me to obturate the tooth, put medicament, put temporary filling and send the patient home. i cant restore the tooth with a permanent filling because the tooth is already dead and might cause the patient to had swelling. 
so i just follow my supervisor advice.
i feel so mad because i can't do any real restoration today and i had to do temporary restoration on to be extracted tooth. and the procedure is not even enlisted as my requirement. shity!
and  yesterday to make my life worse, my patient for perio did not turn up because his child was sick.
so. summary of this week is i did nothing. but one thing i learn is that life does not always goes the way u plan. sabar nurul!!

20 November 2008


cik farie dah tag i lagi. kali ni i dont really under stand the rules. it is so not clear. tp i buat jugak sbb i love wasting my time. hehe thanx farie for tagging me!

Try to answer it as good as you can
Every question is referring to
ONE person

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
  • cinta hati saya
2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her.
  • boley tahan bebelan i
  • respect my parents and family
  • always listen
  • always there for me
  • sweet. say the right thing at the right time.

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.

  • wanting to marry me

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?

  • hm..lotsa thing. tak larat nak list up

5. If he/she become your lover, you will...

  • he already is. hopefully it will be forever. insyaAllah!

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...

  • apa punya soalan ni. negatif sunggoh!

7. If he/she become your lover, he has to improve on...on his/her

  • we both need to improve ourself. it takes two to tango k.

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...

  • huh?

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?

  • spending time together!

10. The overall impression of him/her is...

  • 2 thumbs up.. =X

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

  • i dont know. sometimes i dont care.

12. The character of you for yourself is?

  • i like to be in control

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

  • easily bleeds with people's word. and clumsy!!

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

  • being myself is what i like

15. For the people who likes you, say something about them.

  • i'm engaged!!

16. Ten people to tag:

  • fathiah
  • hana
  • aunty teh
  • jenna
  • yin
  • jo lynn
  • noddy
  • sya
  • paa(double tagging)
  • was aswa

17. Who is no.2 having a relationship with??

  • ehem..ehem..nama dia tak bagi tau. dia cuma gitau nama ehem ehem

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

  • of cos la female. nama pon aunty

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?

  • tak sesuai. they are straight. suka opposite sex la. no 7 already have a soon to be fiancee. heheh
20. How about no. 5 and 8?
  • sama jugak la. ishk. apa punya soklan ni.

21. What is no. 1 studying about?

  • tesl. she's very good in english now!!

22. Is no. 4 single?

  • she claimed to be single. but i still doubt it. hehe.
23. Say something about no. 6 and 9..
  • no 6 is someone i havent seen for years
  • no 9 is someone i see almost everyday. hehe

17 November 2008


my Sayang old hairstyle
my Sayang's hairstyle now. kapla botak


saya telah di tag oleh cik farie. tag busuk!
* Take a recent photo of yourself OR take a picture of yourself RIGHT NOW.
* DONT change your clothes. DON'T fix your hair, just take a picture.
* Post that picture with NO editing.
* Post this instruction with your picture.
* Tag 5 peoples to do this.
nah ko! baru pukol 6 ptg but i'm already in my PJ on my bed to sleep. hehe. baru blk kelas kena tido dulu. can u see me??!!
i'm tagging jo lynn, yin hui, wan, shepha, fathiah
sila buat ye

11 November 2008


selamat ber'SPM" to kak teh. kakak and angah will always pray for u.
 the siblings will always pray and help the others. gambatte kak teh with the exam. and dik mi for hmm the result. and angah for professional. and kakak for the wedding. ahaks!
 kak teh aka anis fahizha binti fahimi (full name, so that u'll hit some thing when u're trying to search your name via google search tool. terpengaruh cerita wanted la ni)
 kak teh and kak teh mmg gila. always love u kak teh.
kak teh mesti jawap exam bebaik k. makes ma, abah, me and the whole family proud of u. buktikan kaki tido boley berjaya!!!

08 November 2008


i should have posted this entry a couple of days a ago. but due to my busyness. i can only post it to day. mama birthday was 3 days ago, 5th November. mama aka Pn. Noor Zhalizah binti Hussain turns 48 on that day. sadly me and angah didn't go back to SP this weekend because angah had to masauk kampung for her cfcs programme. tp on that morning i already wished mama happy birthday. next week i'll be home and belanja mama k! love u mama. walaupun mama garang. tp i love u jgk. and i think i'm becoming more like u now.so below are the many faces of mama.
me and mama. sama tak?!
 mama and abah during hari raya
mama and abah dekat jam besar. makan time!
mama gn adik hezryn.
mama and adik arash sayang.
mama and tom and jerry yg suka gadoh. i think this pic was taken in terengganu.
pengikut mama in terengganu
mama and adik ayu sayang
mama in singapore. mama tak bawak me waktu tu. huhu.
mama and angah busuk. smile!
 mama and abah looking serious.
the thoughts of me getting married in 2 months time really touch me. it makes me cry though. mama and abah sungguh2 prepare for my wedding. and in islam, that will be the day where mama and abah had no more responsiblity on me. dah tak payah tanggung dosa kakak. hm. T.T
p/s:if u just know me, the'zha' from my name, fahizha, comes from mama's name zhalizah. while tha'fahi' comes from my appa, Encik Fahimi bin Ahmad


  1. the food totally suck. it seems like the cafeteria's cook forget his/her recipe book during the weekend.
  2. i have to walk to pasar malam every friday just to buy nasi goreng ikan masin and ayam goreng for dinner.
  3. the toilet is just damn dirty. hate it! hate it! can't they just asked the makcik to cuci the toilet even in the weekend. and the people here, they just don't care. is it that hard to throw they leftover in the bin instead of the sinki. then we end up having a smelly sinki for the whole weekend just because some fool just dont learn. STUPID!
  4. i sleep a lot. and those people who had been practising 'gendang' just don't know how to sleep in the evening. my hate was banging all the time the start their practise.
  5. it is very hard to rent a small kancil. everyone wanna go out. i wish i had my own car. (praying hard!!)
  6. and when i got to rent a car. there's only 3 place to go, either shopping in KB mall, tesco or pasar siti. haha. best la sgt.
  7. the laundry is full. kena berator panjang gila. 
  8. the ampaian also full.
i just wanna go home.
p/s-adik arash dah boleh berjalan!! cant wait to meet him this weekend.

02 November 2008


okay. believe it or not. last weekend i was back in Sungai Petani again. all my neighbour was quite shocked. they said that i makes Kelantan sounds as if it is only 5 minutes away. every week blk. last week me and angah blk semata-mata nak tgk cik humaira sufea binti hoslan, iaitu cousin saya yg plg latest. humaira was borned on the first syawal @ 1st october ago. cute cute. this time humaira blk sebab dia akan dibotakkan. hehe. actually ada majlis cukur jambul si budak kecik ni.

ini ialah humaira with hair. humaira pakai gown. cute cute.

kakak testing pegang humaira. so she's not crying at this time. menunjukkan kakak yg pandai pegang baby and humaira yg sayang kakak. hehe!

tiba-tiba humaira nangis. kakak dah gelabah. sila panggil bibik okay! bantuan bibik adalah diperlukan. i think the weather is the because. panas. humaira allergy to heat. hehe.

usaha membotakkan humaira oleh mak bidan yg dulu telah membotakkan arash badlishah dan kakaknya ayuni trisha. mak bidan ni pakar.

humaira dah botak. tambah cute and gebu kan?!
 kapla humaira yg licin. the mak bidan did a great job!
oops! humaira dah perasan kakak curi ambik gambaq dia time tido. sorry humaira

ala tomeinya humaira. muka macam papa pon ada. macam mama pon ada. n of cos la macam kak long sebijik.
p/s-sgt sedey kerana cik kelly tak dapat mai

29 October 2008


today is angah's birthday. she's now officially 21 years old. anyone nak masuk meminang?! hihi. sorry guys. angah said she'll only get married after she's working. sbb kakaknya dah habiskan duit mama and abah sbb nak kawen waktu study. anw, we celebrated it yesterdat sbb i was so psycho and can't tahan a minute of staying in my small room. clinical day was so tiring that i must go out and refreshed my mind!
so yesterday, i belanja cik angah makan dekat kedai pak cik kenny yg baru dibuka dekat tesco, KB. so angah order some chicken dgn macaroni and cheese. as for me yg berfasting, i ordered spaghetti. the griddy me add some nasi. sbb takut tak kenyang. going half way through the mail was very difficult. banyak sgt. disebabkan saya puasa. saya cepat rasa kenyang. maka bermula lah sesi paksa mulut untuk telan. we were able to finished all the meals. kuat kan?! hehe.
 muka lapar.
 this is what i ate. greedy me!
 choc muffin for angah's birthday. sorry angah kek kecik je tahun ni!
after eating we went to this small fish spa dkt tesco, KB. murah je. RM 12 for 30 minutes. at first geli geli geli. but then after 10 minutes i feels more comfortable. nampak sgt kaki ini penuh daki. sbb ikan tu best sgt makan.
just ignore the big feet. focus on the fish. cute aite?! warning! ignore the ugly-big-feet, ok?!
p/s- noddy jom la p tempat ikan ni. best best best!