KEDAH

i just knew that i'll be posted to Kedah and was asked to register on 16 August 2010. i need to present myself at the head office then they will send me to either Sungai Petani or Alor Setar. how ever, i haven't receive the official letter yet. so let's just wait for the big news.

alhamdulillah. i finally made it. after 5 years of study. gallon of tears had been shed, tones of energy had been used. i finally got my degree. my gratitude goes to my family members, friends, doctors, staffs in polyclinic and everyone. please continue to pray that i'll be ok in my working life. 

i'm not a student anymore! 

FIELD TRIP

under the hot sun!

i'm just glad that i did not choose engineering as my profession. i don't think i'm born to be one. my trip to Sg Dua, Penang was to see how water fluoridation was done, however, the trip turned out to be more on how water was cleaned before distributed to others. it was a damn hot morning, and we were required to climb all the stairs to visit all the pools.the problem was; we were asked to wear formal attire during this trip, and most of my friend chose to wear baju kurung and heels. while the stubborn me chose to wear pants and shirt. lucky me for being stubborn, it was easier for me to climb the stairs.

it was a good experience for us. i don't think i will ever visit that place if this trip was not organized.

performed my first minor oral surgery. it was a bad experience. so sad. hope my second one will be better.

THE SPECIAL NEEDS CHILDREN

upon graduation, we need to learn on how to give oral hygiene education to several groups of people. my group were scheduled to give talks to the children with special needs in Klinik Kesihatn Bunohan, Tumpat; a 45-minutes drive from USM. in the clinic there is a special center where children with disability around Tumpat area gather everyday. they were taught to read, write and how to take care of themselves. it's a learning center for them.

when we arrived there, we were not quite prepared cause we are the first group who went there. so we didn't really know what to bring and what to do. our mistake was we didn't bring any LCD or laptop cause we assumed that they will prepare it for us. our mistake for expecting things so high. Tumpat is a village area, we should be prepare instead of assuming things. so we learned something there. as a solution, we opt for a traditional way.

and that is by showing pictures manually and divided each of them into groups so that we can teach them personally on how to take care of their teeth. i was in charge with a group with learning difficulties. i didn't know their actual disease, but i'm assuming some of them had autism or attention deficit or ADHD. cause they looks very normal. but had difficulty to speak and understand. other groups included children with cerebral palsy (CP) and down syndrome's children. i didn't about my friends but i found that it is very hard for me to teach children with learning disability. they didn't look at u or gave u any attention. all they were interested in were the "big teeth" model that i brought.

most of the children there never have a visit to a dentist. so u can guess how they teeth looks like. crooked anterior teeth and so.with the little knowledge that i had, i try my best to teach them. especially to this lady,who had a 2 years old son. she never cleaned his teeth. so i'm trying my best to teach her cause her son is still young, do we can still take care of the teeth.

the children brushing their teeth.

he had a very dedicated father. this child is had CP and grind his teeth a lot. so he got lotsa teeth with attrition.

some of them came from a poor family, so they came to the center with a van. the van's owner only charge them half price. a kind man i believe, it's very hard to find a person who did things for free nowadays.

they look normal ain't they?! some of them aged more than 20

i had a lots of fun with them. looking forward for more activities like this in the future....

SCHOOL ORAL HEALTH DAY 2010

we organized a school's oral health day in SMK Kemumin Pengakalan Chepa last week. it was a 3 days event. there was exhibitions, dental check up and 1Malaysia Smile contest.

just arrived

the school

dental check up on the mobile clinic

dental hygiene education where we taught them on how to brush and floss correctly.

i love this kind of activity cause i can be away from clinic for sometime, although i  really hate the preparation part. this kind of program helps me to gain confident in myself. from this program i learned that becoming a teacher is a very tough job. as it is a school from a village area. the kids there are quite a tough block, they hardly listen to anyone. i see teachers bringing caine to the class. i see teacher hit them with a 'rotan', it was very interesting cause i never see this kind of act in my school, but still the students act as it was nothing.

ouh. i wonder how my friends are doing in the schools now. i hope they are find cause i know it's getting tougher to teach kids nowaday. all the best friends. i really respect your passion in becoming a teacher.

THIS IS A TEACHING HOSPITAL

text 1: miss. are u still interested for dental treament

1 hour...no reply. 1 day...no reply. 1 week.. still no reply. it's just too weird when people don't want free dental treatment because it is very expensive outside

finally after 1 month...

text 2: hye, i'm not interested doing treatment with u anymore. i will seek treatment from real dentist, who will treat me as a patient not as a subject for them to learn.

and this came from a final year nursing student, who every morning goes to the ward and take blood from every patient on bed, who give them medication with her SPM cert cause she haven't had degree or even a diploma. so what makes she thinks she is better then us. this is a teaching hospital u idiot. everybody is learning, patient is a subject for us to learn. where do u think those specialist came from?! they didn't just got the skill without practicing. they learn first.

at least, we here have a supervisor, who check every single details of our work. even a small undetected caries who will not harm the patient in several years will  make the supervisor yell at us like it was a cancer. while u, your supervisor will only be around sometime, not like us. what makes u so great that u think u are not using all the patient in the ward as a subject for u to learn.

RACIST

 i studied in a Convent school for 11 years. my friends came from different ethnic groups Malay, Chinese, Indian, Siamese and etc. i'd been used to mingle with friends that didn't share the same custom with me. but who cares. as long as we can get along, we never actually make race as a barrier between us. we share stories, laughs, foods and drinks without even care.

and today i met a patient who refuse to be treat by me cause I'm a Malay. it did breaks my heart. cause previously i never 'double standard' my patients. i treat them equally. whether there are Malay or Chinese (i haven't had Indian patient here in Kelantan). even i myself went to dental clinics run by Chineses.

and this woman is a teacher. who's supposed to show some examples to others. 

a conversation between a sister and her 6-years-old cousin

sister: kakak nak check gigi adik la hari ni! boleh tak??
6-years-old cousin: boleh-boleh. nah tengok gigi adik
sister: eh. adik. ada apa dekat gigi ni. hitam-hitam
6-years-old cousin: ada apa kakak?! ada 'cavity' ke??
sister: hahahahhahahaha

if u ask her what's the meaning of cavity. i don't think she can answer it. she barely speaks in English. it shows how big TV's influence to lil kid! and i found it very cute.

cute kan?!

7th SSC

finally it's over. i ended my elective project with a not-so-impressive presentation. but at least it's over. i can finally breath now.

me and  my slides

Kak Teh and Angah was there to support me. thanx dear sisters!!

 

of cause i didn't win. but congratulations to all the winner. i pray that u all will win in the national level. 

ART AND DENTISTRY

"Dentistry is an Art" Dr ZM.

i was scold by my supervisor that day cause my restoration was not so aesthetic. it makes the patient smiles weird and it didn't look like his natural teeth at all. i was trying to build a fracture crown to the patient and it takes me almost one hour to trim the crown so that it looks like his adjacent teeth. i can't finish my work as it was already 1230pm.

she said it with this looks that makes me think whether i'd made the right choice in learning dentistry. i never loves art. i learned it until i'm in my form 3 and i hate it and i'm not artistic either. i've a pair of hands that is worse than a wood.

i regret that i never love art. cause i now she's right. it will be easier for me to learn dentistry if i'm more creative. cause i'd seen my friends who can finish doing a cavity in less than 2 hour while for me it may takes more.

i'm not good in bending wires.

i make bad impression for patient's models.

i make hideous restoration.

i'm not gentle enough during extration.

my suturing sucks.

i can't recall anything in dentistry that i'm good at.

can i just become a housewife and stay at home?!

but it's already too late. i already dive in too deep, walk out so far, fly up damn high. it's not the time for me to look back. i need to move forward. oh Allah please gives me strength cause i know everything happens for a reason and only U who knows it.

but one advice i can give to anyone who's planning to do dentistry. u need to know how to manage your stress level. and it's an advantage if u have miracle hands.

THE DOCTORS

although i didn't consider myself a doctor, my patient still addressed me as one.

1. I gave a talk after I was conferred an honorary degree by the International Medical University. I directed a major part of my talk to the new graduates.


2. I explained that medicine is not just a profession, a qualification for earning a good income. It is a vocation, a calling which involves dedication to the job of healing the sick and caring for them.


3. What their qualification confers upon them is not just a degree but as doctors they have been elevated to a special status and endowed with special powers. They would have in them the capacity to inspire confidence and trust in their patient. The confidence and trust are such that people would literally entrust their lives to them, allowing them to cut open their bodies and do things which could kill if done by others.

4. The skill and the power they acquire owe much to the society in which they were brought up and their access to education up to the highest level. Not all human society can do this. A poor society, an unstable society, an uncaring society would not be able to give them even primary education, much less training to become a doctor. The cost borne by the society is high.Whether they get a scholarship or their parents pay for their education, they all owe a debt to society. It behoves them to repay to society through the service in which they are trained.


5. They should therefore be ready to offer their services to the society in which they lived. It may be by serving the Government or if this is not attractive enough, at least their country. They can earn a good income in Malaysia's private sector.


6. But some easily forget their debt and are easily enticed by higher pay in other countries. These countries paid nothing for their education and training and yet for a little bit more money they get the services of the people we paid a lot to train whether in Government school and universities or in private ones. Quite often the countries which get the service of our doctors are developed and rich.


7. The nation loses a lot when the people we train opts to work in other countries.


8. But the association of doctors make matters worse by refusing entry to foreign doctors to practice. It wants to keep the opportunities for making money in this country to its members only. It does not mind Malaysian doctors going out but foreign doctors may not come in. Only if they work with the Government can they come in.


9. The flow is one-way. Our doctors can leave the country but foreign doctors cannot replace them. We are losing the brains that we develop without the foreign brain coming in.


10. Despite all the Government's efforts we are losing especially the much-needed specialists.


11. There is something wrong here. If the Malaysian Medical Association (MMA) wishes to close the country to outsiders then it should also object to Malaysian doctors from leaving the country. As it is the MMA seem to be wanting to have their cake and to eating it as well.


12. I am not suggesting that as we have embraced globalisation and the free flow of capital etc that we should now allow foreign doctors to come and open their hospitals here. But I do think that if local hospitals need to employ foreign doctors then they should be allowed to. 

source: Che Det

ANAESTHESIOLOGY POSTING

anaes posting sudah start. that means we wont be having our clinic sessions. 

"oh patient ku! maaf deh, sbb saya tok leh wak lagi gigi tu deh. 2 minggu lg kita panggey deh"

INFECTIONS CONTROL

kat department aku tgh posting skarang , tak praktikkan the standard infections control that we'd been thaught. they never wear gloves. mask jauh skali la. aku bukan la nak prejudis dkt patient. tp aren't we supposed to apply that to all patient.


pegang suction utk sedut earwax, then pegang muka sendirik. nanti p makan kat cafe pulak. maybe diorang sentiasa ingat utk basuh tangan lepas treat patient kot. hm.. peliknya. dkt klinik aku selalu kena marah sebab tak ikut standard yg ditetapkan. tp kat sini semua org relax ja. pegang lidah dengan gauze, barehand, without any gloves?! ada korang sanggup buat?

BACK TO SCHOOL

wuaah! kelas dah start. i'm in final year now. macam tak percaya ja that i'm gonna finished my degree in 10 months time. insyaAllah!

right now, i'm posted in the ORL dept. next week dah ada exam! huahua. rasa macam tak besedia nak study ja. cayok!

FAIRYTALES NIGHT

we had our graduation night last week at Renaissance KB. congratz to all seniors who had make it through. i am so proud of u guys. i can't wait till it's my turn. the theme for that night was Fairytales. everybody dressed up nicely. i was wearing white kebaya. i'm supposed to be a Malay fairy but somehow my headgear that will madw me looked like a fairy was missing in action. huhu! i was quite frustrated cause i already bought the thing but i couldn't wear it.

overall that night was superb, the food was nice, the ambience was so fairytales. i love it. congratz to all of my friends who really work hard to make this night so perfect. im sorry that i didnt help that much cause i was having some problems with my study. im so not good in multitasking. here are some pictures of the night.

7th batch of DDS USM

 

there were pirates, fairies, red ridding hood, witches, stepsisters, princesses and etc

lower left pictures are pictures of our friends with Dr Wan, the winner for best dressed female that night. she was so sporting.

lower picture are picture of Dr Raja and wifey

most of the pictures i took from my friends pages. i didnt have lotsa picture cause i was having headache that night so i went home earlier. CONGRATZ TO 6th BATCH DDS USM.

MINOR ORAL SURGERY

I'd undergo a minor oral surgery to remove my only third molar aka wisdom tooth that i had. the tooth was horizontally erupted. it took my senior more than 1 hour to remove that stubborn tooth.

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first she numbed half of my jaw with local anesthesia. then when i felt completely numb, she started the procedure with opening of the flab near the location of my tooth. then she used a round bur to cut my bone and removed the bone. she loosened the tooth using a tool but still she can't remove it. so the surgeon in charge asked her to cut my tooth into several pieces before removing it completely.

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just imagine all the tools in side my mouth. it was a terrible feeling. it made me realize how unease patient is when they are sitting on my chair. sakit. lengoh. takut.

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saya insaf sebentar!

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after the  tooth was removed. she sutured the wound. leaving me with a wound in my mouth.

can u imagine how i ate after that. but lucky me, it did not swell like others did. alhamdulillah. i was given antibiotic, pain killer, and MC for 3 days. weei!

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i am lucky because the other 3 wisdom tooth are congenitally missing. meaning that i did not have to go through another painful operation like this.

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to be honest it wasn't painful at all. ya la. because during the procedure i was numbed. but when the numbness disappear, i felt like crying for my Mama, because it was so damn painful. hate it. i can still eat nasi even with the suture in my mouth. sunggoh hebat kan?! but when it comes to pizza, i surrendered. nasi tak payah kunyah, but pizza haruslah dikunyah. kenapalah Mama nak belanja pizza time Kakak MOS. huhu.

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the x-ray of my teeth. sorry sbb sangat tak clear!

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and now i only has 28 tooth! hypodontia i am! hehe.

PLAIN

i'm stuck with 2 exam next week. one oral pathology and the other one is medical exam. a suprised exam for us. they never told us till one week before it. how am i supposed to study and remember things in one week? the issue here is that, we finished our medical posting like 3months ago, of cause all the things we'd learned are already rotten inside this head. 

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my forth year almost come to its end. i'll be having my final forth year exam in early May. i haven't found any patient suitable to be my patient during exam. anyone out there want RM50? come be my patient!! u'll be given RM 50 and free filling treatment. but u MUST have carious tooth and are brave enough to bare with the stress and tension of exam. huhu. please! anyone?!

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i have several case presentation to be done. but i haven't found any interesting case to be discuss with my friends. some of the case are interesting but i forgot to take the picture of  pre- and post treatment. silly me! now i feel so miserable. i hate doing thing at last minute of time but it seems like i'm doing it right now! huhu. anyone with extra tooth? i need u to be my patient for oral patho case presentation.

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my requirement is still at unsatisfactory level. i haven't issued any denture. havent done any root planning. only manage to extract 12 teeth from 15 that should be. only had 3 pedo patient. i'm so slow. so slow. slow slow.

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i feels so miserable right now. but i still manage to smile, blogging and watch tv. i hate myself for being like this.

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i wanna graduate fast. i don't like it staying here. it'd been 4 years already. one more year, and i'll leave this place. insyaAllah. i admit it that i made great and interesting friends here. but somehow sometime i just don't feel belong here. huhu. 

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friends, can u please pray that i'll graduate on time, safe and sound!

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how i wish i am home right now, cuddling beside my Sayang.

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RUMAH PUTERI HARAPAN

i went to Rumah Puteri Harapan in Pengkalan Chepa last weekend. it was houses for orphanage. i had a lots of fun. we gave education on oral health and disease to them. they were really friendly.

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i was in charge to be the facilitator for children between 9 y.o to 14 years old. they were all so manja with me. in the evening,  i was supposed to continue my work in the exhibition section but i continue my work as their facilitator. because they want no one else as fasi.

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some of the children call us cikgu. i think they were used to it. it's ok for me.

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my group won the most hyperactive group.

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i had a lot of fin there. i hope we can go there again.

 

 these are the members of my group. kumpulan 1. the most hyperactive group

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 fafa and naliny giving oral health education

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 kak adah pretending to be a lecturer. hehe.

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 ain giving instruction on how to clean their teeth perfectly. my group were listening.

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 me the faci.

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my group playing games

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 playing games

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 the girls in Kumpulan 1

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 the naughty kids in my group

 

games!

WELCOME 2009

tomorrow dah 2009. i hope 2009 bring me more wealth and health. i hope i can fulfill my requirement and graduate by june 2010. everyone please pray for my my success. i hope i will be able to do my work faster. i'm such a slow poke. i hope i'll be more skillfull and make less mistake. so that i will be scold less by all the specialist.


anyway. there's less than 1 month til my wedding. i can't believe that in less than one month time i will become Puan Nurul Fahizha. sounds funny. but it's gonna be true soon. dup dap dup dap. im scare when thinking of the responsiblity of being a wife, a daughter in law, a sister  in law. takutnya. i will have a new family.



my school friend cik izyan farhana will be getting married on the same day of i am. tiru tiru. then i can't be on your wedding then.



i hope all my friends are able to make it to my wedding. i  miss all of them especially those from my class in 5J 2003. i miss school time. except for the school uniform and the exam.



i'm still trying to flatten up my tummy. i look thin. but my tummy is so not flat. any tips anyone? i want flat tummy before my wedding. i don't wanna look like a pregnant woman on my wedding.



hm..it's already end of december and i haven't recieve my scholar. im dying out of money now. usm is killing me. they should think about us who rely on the scholar 100%. time nak mintak duit org nak cepat2. time nak duit dia lambat2. so unfair!!!



dup dap dup dap. wish me luck.



happy new year. my resolution are to have a better life and to become a better person than what i'd been before.