31 December 2009


28 December 2009


we spend 2 days in Sayang's Pak Lang's dusun in Batu Gajah Perak. i never sleep in a dusun.

pak lang's dusun. very neat and clean.

we ate a lots of durian and langsats there

but before that we need to climb some trees. that's my Sayang

our jobs were to pick up the fruits plucked by Sayang and Pak Lang

Dikmi was trying to prove that he's good too

this is paklang, still strong at 64

enjoying the durians

let the men do the jobs while i just sit around and took pictures

i love this activity so much. main tembak-tembak. well, i'm getting better in it now

04 December 2009


text 1: miss. are u still interested for dental treament

1 hour...no reply. 1 day...no reply. 1 week.. still no reply. it's just too weird when people don't want free dental treatment because it is very expensive outside

finally after 1 month...
text 2: hye, i'm not interested doing treatment with u anymore. i will seek treatment from real dentist, who will treat me as a patient not as a subject for them to learn.

and this came from a final year nursing student, who every morning goes to the ward and take blood from every patient on bed, who give them medication with her SPM cert cause she haven't had degree or even a diploma. so what makes she thinks she is better then us. this is a teaching hospital u idiot. everybody is learning, patient is a subject for us to learn. where do u think those specialist came from?! they didn't just got the skill without practicing. they learn first.

at least, we here have a supervisor, who check every single details of our work. even a small undetected caries who will not harm the patient in several years will  make the supervisor yell at us like it was a cancer. while u, your supervisor will only be around sometime, not like us. what makes u so great that u think u are not using all the patient in the ward as a subject for u to learn.

22 November 2009


 i studied in a Convent school for 11 years. my friends came from different ethnic groups Malay, Chinese, Indian, Siamese and etc. i'd been used to mingle with friends that didn't share the same custom with me. but who cares. as long as we can get along, we never actually make race as a barrier between us. we share stories, laughs, foods and drinks without even care.

and today i met a patient who refuse to be treat by me cause I'm a Malay. it did breaks my heart. cause previously i never 'double standard' my patients. i treat them equally. whether there are Malay or Chinese (i haven't had Indian patient here in Kelantan). even i myself went to dental clinics run by Chineses.

and this woman is a teacher. who's supposed to show some examples to others. 

10 November 2009


Kak Teh was here during her semester break. and we ate at Cim Cum. how i love Cim Cum badly.

i only manage to take her to different eating places. i don't know where else to take her besides eating. hehe..

then we met Nubhan in KB. he's there for TM promotion

08 November 2009


the reasons i wanna go home, besides my Sayang and my Mama and Abah. they are just too cute too handle

Arash and me preternding to be cute. well, he's cute. i'm gorgeous. haha

Arash and me pretending to be ghosts while trying to scare Kak Teh away.

Arash, Ayu and me. Arash was not interest to take picture at this time. 

the 3 of us, trying to show our good set of teeth. aha

dearest Arash and his mama, Aunty Cik

all of the pictures above were taken during my finally-Kelantan-masuk-final holiday. sadly they didn't win, or else we'll get one more day of holiday. Sayang was no around cause he was in Shah Alam preparing for his viva.

05 November 2009


happy birthday Mama. love u so much. thank u for everything that u ever did and sacrificed just to see me, Angah, Kak Teh and Dikmi alive and healthy. i thank u for the trust that u gave me to make my own decision. mama love u. love u. there's no word that i can use to describe how much i love u. may happiness, wealth and health be with u. i also pray that Abah's application to return to Sp will be granted soon. i love Mama and Abah so much


Ninie aka Marlini got married to her dearest fiancee, Izaney last Sunday. i can't make it to the wedding cause i'm here in Kelantan and Sunday is not a weekend. Ninie was my class mate during primary, we haven't seen each other for years after she moved to KL. thanx to FB we can finally connect to each other now.

Congratulations dear. i wish u all the best in this new life. May u and your hubby have a blissful and happy marriage life. and lotsa children tu. (^-^) "wink wink!"

perfect for each other, aite?!

Convent girls aka my friends that were there at the ceremony. i envy u girls k!

she still looks good from behind and i love her dress. 

she's so pretty, that's why she's a model. even the bridesmaid looks so good.

credit for pictures goes to Farhana. Fana i curi dr FB u and edit skit ja. hehe.

30 October 2009


happy birthday dear Angah. angah turn 22 yesterday. we celebrated it 3 days earlier in Secret Recipe, Tesco KB cause at that time Kak Teh was still here in Kelantan. we have fun together. it's been awhile since three of us got to spend time together since i'm married and Kak Teh is busy with her matriculation life.  we ate, chat, gigle and gossips about everything under the sun. oh, i had so much fun. i feel so destress. i love it when we are together.

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angah is a pretender!!!!!

dear Angah,
i know that we are from 2 differerent worlds. what i like will never love by u. that's weird when we are sisters right?! but i found it very unique for us.

u love studying so much but i hate it badly
i never love going to wards and still wonder why u can stay there for more than 5 hours.
i never love Korean and Japan movie so much like u do
we always disagree on everything
u hate it when i comment your style of driving which i love doing on everybody 
i think the type of guy that we like are completely different right?

but i love your company. i think your are one of the reason why i can stay in boring place for almost 5 years.  i hope u succeed in everything that u do. i love u so much. and i also pray that u'll meet the one!! hehe..

a conversation between a sister and her 6-years-old cousin

sister: kakak nak check gigi adik la hari ni! boleh tak??
6-years-old cousin: boleh-boleh. nah tengok gigi adik
sister: eh. adik. ada apa dekat gigi ni. hitam-hitam
6-years-old cousin: ada apa kakak?! ada 'cavity' ke??
sister: hahahahhahahaha

if u ask her what's the meaning of cavity. i don't think she can answer it. she barely speaks in English. it shows how big TV's influence to lil kid! and i found it very cute.

cute kan?!

29 October 2009

7th SSC

finally it's over. i ended my elective project with a not-so-impressive presentation. but at least it's over. i can finally breath now.

me and  my slides

Kak Teh and Angah was there to support me. thanx dear sisters!!

of cause i didn't win. but congratulations to all the winner. i pray that u all will win in the national level. 

28 October 2009

i found a blog that belong to my ERT teacher in secondary. she's also my friend's mom. cikgu dah pandai blogging ye skarang!!

27 October 2009


"Dentistry is an Art" Dr ZM.

i was scold by my supervisor that day cause my restoration was not so aesthetic. it makes the patient smiles weird and it didn't look like his natural teeth at all. i was trying to build a fracture crown to the patient and it takes me almost one hour to trim the crown so that it looks like his adjacent teeth. i can't finish my work as it was already 1230pm.

she said it with this looks that makes me think whether i'd made the right choice in learning dentistry. i never loves art. i learned it until i'm in my form 3 and i hate it and i'm not artistic either. i've a pair of hands that is worse than a wood.

i regret that i never love art. cause i now she's right. it will be easier for me to learn dentistry if i'm more creative. cause i'd seen my friends who can finish doing a cavity in less than 2 hour while for me it may takes more.

i'm not good in bending wires.
i make bad impression for patient's models.
i make hideous restoration.
i'm not gentle enough during extration.
my suturing sucks.
i can't recall anything in dentistry that i'm good at.

can i just become a housewife and stay at home?!

but it's already too late. i already dive in too deep, walk out so far, fly up damn high. it's not the time for me to look back. i need to move forward. oh Allah please gives me strength cause i know everything happens for a reason and only U who knows it.

but one advice i can give to anyone who's planning to do dentistry. u need to know how to manage your stress level. and it's an advantage if u have miracle hands.

23 October 2009


my bestfriend since secondary, Nur Safawati bt Mohd Nor or better known to us as Watai, take a step into a new life last Sunday, 181009. she's now a wife to Mohd Muslim b Abu Bakar. i was only informed about the event one day before it happended. it was a last minute decision because Watai and her husband are posted to Sabah and need to report their duty there end of this month. so she only invited those close to her. i can make it to the wedding since im at home spending the Deepavali holidays.

it was a simple wedding. the akad nikah was done in Masjid Taman Ria Jaya, and a 'majlis kesyukuran' was held at her house. the real wedding will only take place next year. so to those who were not invited, please understand her situation. insyaAllah, she will invite everyone to her wedding (that will be held next year perhaps???!)

husband and wife

nab, watai and me. kelly cant make it to the wedding as she was in Shah Alam receiving her scroll. congratz to u too dear.

may Allah bless both of you with happiness til the end and lotsa children too k! now i'm waiting for nab and kelly's turn pulak.


now, we are already in the Zulkaedah. insyaAllah. this will be the last year i'll be celebrating hari raya in Kelanatan. hopefully!!!!! there were so many open house's that i'd attended all this month. i love the foods. and i love the celebration. thanx everyone who had invited me to their house.

raya at Sue's house in Tanjung Chat.

Open House at Encik Yahya's house in PCB

at Ruzi's house in Pasir Mas

Cik Nobi's open house in Pasir Mas

PPSG's raya celebration 2009. i love it.

07 October 2009


Noddy turned 23 today. we celebrated it at Noodle's Station. sama macam last year. hehe.

mesra ?!  jangan jeles ye Najmudin

oh Noddy, kenapa la birthday ko selalu time tak best. time busy. time exam.actually my plan was not to wish u anything on the day. tp sya takut hg marah.

dearest Noddy,
i'm wishing u all the best in life and akhirat.

03 October 2009


just now i met ain. she's married now. her wedding was one week ago but i failed to attend the ceremony cause my Sayang was sick. sorry ain! anyway, congratulation ain. may u have a blissful marriage till the end.

seri pengantin baru ain and seri pengantin lama me.


i ate a lot at sue's house today. thanx sue and aunty for the delicacies. i love the  curry mee so much. aunty, please teach me how to cook curry mee

the guest and the host

02 October 2009


they makes me smile and laugh
they made my day
rindu ayu and arash
by the way, arash was trying to take picture using my mom's hp that didn't have a camera. so cute.

01 October 2009


is it too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya?
Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir & Batin

 theme baju raya tahun ni=caca marba

10 September 2009


this is my patient a 22 years old lady. she had mobile front tooth due to an accident she. she went for splinting of the tooth and some treatment with the periodontal specialist. both of the treatment fail. and the tooth had to be extracted. i made a denture for her before extracting the tooth. so that when it was extracted, she won't walk around woth no front teeth. this denture is known as immediate denture.

can u guess which one is the 'fake' teeth??
the answer is the right one

09 September 2009


yesterday HUSM blood bank organized a Mega Blood Donating Campaign. 

i'm too lazy to write. this is what i copied from Sya:
"firstly...we have to go through some screening. Haemoglobin (Hb) level.....is the culprit that can cause ur form to be rejected. if ur Hb not in the range that the blood bank wants....then im sorry, u r out. so, last night....it was a bit suspen lar. since i was losing weight before, i was afraid that it will affect my Hb level. but u know what....my Hb level was sky high. 14.9 g/dL. that was the highest level i ever reached. and congratulation to noddy, after spending 3 weeks eating the iron tablets....she pass and can donate her blood after one year waiting for that. and to nurul n alia...usaha lagi yerk."

my Hb level was 11.3g/dL. so wallah. I'm not able to donate. I'm so sad. cause i haven't been donating blood since 1 year ago. may be next time i'll go and donate. i need to consume my iron tablet more frequent. cause my low Hb is causing me to easily get tired. i hate iron tablets, cause they make me feels bloated and nausea.

most frequent question asked to me was, "are u allow to donate your blood when you are fasting?" the answer is "yes! as long as it's not causing u any harm."

lastly, donate your blood, cause there are people who needs them but not able to produce it themselves. for us who is healthy, we only give some, but our body is still able to produce new blood cells. so think about it.

02 September 2009


"ilmu yang paling sukar untuk dikuasai ialah ilmu IKHLAS" nasihat dari AFHO

it is very true. and i find it very hard especially when u help someone but deep in your heart there's a whisper telling u that one will do the same thing to u when u ask for their help next time. and when u do asked for their help and they gave u so many excuses, u grumble inside your heart that one is never grateful for your help last time. oh dear.

sometime i think my heart is dark and black, or is it my mind who wants it that way?! i never wanna feel that way, but that hunched, that whisper, it bothers me a lot. i know that once i question what i did, then i won't gain any 'pahala' from the good deed that i did. but that hunched, that whisper, why are u still there. i don't need u. but what should i do to get rid of u. oh God, i'm still learnig that word, i may know the meaning, but to apply it in me, it may takes some time.

31 August 2009


suka dengaq org cakap Kedah. walaupon kasaq. 
Selamat Hari Merdeka!

30 August 2009


firstly, i would like to wish "SELAMAT HARI WARGA TUA SYA KENTOT!!! KAMU SUDAH TUA WO!"

Dah hampir 5 tahun saya kenal Sya kentot. dia tetap busuk, suka kentot, sendawa kuat dan suka tido. hehe. of cos i'm lying right. actually, Sya busuk is one of my bestest friend in USM. and she turned 23 today. we celebrated it with a small cake only. (kalau aku kaya sure aku beli indulgence yg besar itu. hukhuk)

Maybe this will be the last year we'll celebrate it in Sya's small room in USM. hopefully next year, Sya will be rich enough to afford a grand birthday party in a 5 star hotel. insyaAllah kan Sya.

Dear SYA,
study hard ok dear. cause i know u can't wait to add the DR in front of your name like i do. so strive for it. 
and i think 23 is still still young to get married. so enjoy your life first. don't feel stress only because others get married. cause the right person for u is out there somewhere, there're just with the wrong person. (please guess the source of this quotes!)
thanx for being there when i needed u. for being my shopping partner, my gossips sources, my driver, my photographer for my wedding, my tukang basuh pinggan, my tukang buat air kopi power masa study time, my movies supplier, my apa lagi ek? ko tambah la ek. May our friendship last forever. 
(to noddy: ko pon sama jgk la ye)
aku byk lagi nak ckp tapi dah lupa la! huhuhu. nanti aku ingat aku update la. hehe

23 August 2009


although i didn't consider myself a doctor, my patient still addressed me as one.

1. I gave a talk after I was conferred an honorary degree by the International Medical University. I directed a major part of my talk to the new graduates.

2. I explained that medicine is not just a profession, a qualification for earning a good income. It is a vocation, a calling which involves dedication to the job of healing the sick and caring for them.

3. What their qualification confers upon them is not just a degree but as doctors they have been elevated to a special status and endowed with special powers. They would have in them the capacity to inspire confidence and trust in their patient. The confidence and trust are such that people would literally entrust their lives to them, allowing them to cut open their bodies and do things which could kill if done by others.

4. The skill and the power they acquire owe much to the society in which they were brought up and their access to education up to the highest level. Not all human society can do this. A poor society, an unstable society, an uncaring society would not be able to give them even primary education, much less training to become a doctor. The cost borne by the society is high.Whether they get a scholarship or their parents pay for their education, they all owe a debt to society. It behoves them to repay to society through the service in which they are trained.

5. They should therefore be ready to offer their services to the society in which they lived. It may be by serving the Government or if this is not attractive enough, at least their country. They can earn a good income in Malaysia's private sector.

6. But some easily forget their debt and are easily enticed by higher pay in other countries. These countries paid nothing for their education and training and yet for a little bit more money they get the services of the people we paid a lot to train whether in Government school and universities or in private ones. Quite often the countries which get the service of our doctors are developed and rich.

7. The nation loses a lot when the people we train opts to work in other countries.

8. But the association of doctors make matters worse by refusing entry to foreign doctors to practice. It wants to keep the opportunities for making money in this country to its members only. It does not mind Malaysian doctors going out but foreign doctors may not come in. Only if they work with the Government can they come in.

9. The flow is one-way. Our doctors can leave the country but foreign doctors cannot replace them. We are losing the brains that we develop without the foreign brain coming in.

10. Despite all the Government's efforts we are losing especially the much-needed specialists.

11. There is something wrong here. If the Malaysian Medical Association (MMA) wishes to close the country to outsiders then it should also object to Malaysian doctors from leaving the country. As it is the MMA seem to be wanting to have their cake and to eating it as well.

12. I am not suggesting that as we have embraced globalisation and the free flow of capital etc that we should now allow foreign doctors to come and open their hospitals here. But I do think that if local hospitals need to employ foreign doctors then they should be allowed to. 

source: Che Det

22 August 2009


Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan.
Semoga puasa kita tahun ni tak 'kurus' disebabkan Facebook, Youtube, dan Blogs.
Semoga bertambah segala amalan and dan kekal bertambah walau Ramadhan dah berakhir.
Semoga dapat menghalang segala nafsu tika di bazaar Ramadhan.
Semoga dapat tunaikan terawikh sepenuh-penuhnya, dgn penuh kusyuk dan tawaduk. 
Semoga menjadi insan yg lebih baik
Semoga segala niat yang baik itu dipermudahkan 

this picture is not related to the title of this entry. i just missed my Dear.

08 August 2009


the wedding at her house in Kemaman, which i had missed 

bini orangs!! yati was so cute on that day.
congratulation to Paly and Yati!! May Allah Bless both of u with happinness and wealth.

07 August 2009


Dear Sir,

do u know that there were studies that says "our brain can only focus for 30 minutes, before it goes *&^%&*#". yeah yeah! i know i can't provide u a journal or any articles to u right now. as a prove but i'll try to find it later and e-mail it to u. but what ever!! the thing is, all those studies, really imply to my brain. it's like i was their subject at that time. what a coincident right?!

so, if u let me sit in your lecture for 1 hour! i can still be concious and act like a normal people do. but when u let me sit in your lecture for 2 bloody hours plus waiting for u like a rotten 'wutever' for 2 hours before the actual lecture start, it really make me feels like @#$%^&*!!

so next time, can u please, please try to be in our shoes and feels how we feels. oh! i forgot, u used to be a student too. but u just bare with it cause u were a student. a student must listen, and listen and listen.

hm. i got it now. next time i will try to listen, listen and listen, and listen, and listen, and listen and listen. and dont understand anything!

thank u sir!

Yours truly,
your student

05 August 2009


in my class there's one 'penjual ikan'. who'll do anything, everything just to be outstanding. oh God. why do i had to encounter such person in my life.

30 July 2009


i don't like anaest posting. i just don't like it. 
i don't like spending time in operation theatre.
i hate the "friendly" nurses there.
but at least i got to know what propofol did to MJ.
now i wonder what the heck did his doctor think when he gave him propofol.

29 July 2009


morning text :
'syg, wtpa?'. 'busy la'.

afternoon text :
'syg wtpa?'. 'meetin'.

evening text :
'syg wtpa?'. 'bru hbs meetn. lunch gn consultn'.

night text :
'syg wtpa?'. 'bru blk.gntok'. ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..................
and here comes Miss Understanding (monolog)

27 July 2009


today is my dearest Aunty Cik's birthday. yg ke berapa adalah dirahsiakan. hehe. so this is a special post for one my favourite aunty in the world.

the make up artist during my wedding and my engagement day! wah! first time aunty cik looked so serious wo! ahah

a special post from aunty cik

aunty cik and adik arash bucuk!

p/s: i love u!!