alhamdulillah. i finally made it. after 5 years of study. gallon of tears had been shed, tones of energy had been used. i finally got my degree. my gratitude goes to my family members, friends, doctors, staffs in polyclinic and everyone. please continue to pray that i'll be ok in my working life. 

i'm not a student anymore! 

POST CORE

Alhamdulillah. i finally manage to issue my first fixed prosthodontic case which is an anterior post core. it was made to support root treated tooth. it was quite hard to find a suitable case for this, cause we really need a perfect obturated tooth for post. hah! it's probably very hard for others to understand what i'm saying, but the thing is that i'm so happy cause, satu requirement sudah kurang. 

now, i can worry about my bridge case.

i made a countdown for my professional 3 exam. so for today, 102 days left til pro exam. 

so much things to be settled, requirement, reports. i can't wait to graduate. please god, help me by making things easier for me!!

2009

new year feels the same for me. it doesn't make any changes at all. it's just another flip to a new calendar, a new diary to be filled and a new organizer to fill in with patient's appointment. last night was celebrated with dear TV and Angah. nothing much. i never appreciate new year. i never even celebrate it. but during previous new years, it's a MUST for me to make new year resolutions., but for this new year i only had one, hm... probably two. first of all I WANNA GRADUATE! i have enough of life here. i wanna finish my study and work and have my own money. i envy my friends who's already leaving their title as students.


however, 2009 did make a lots of impact in my life. my wedding!!! ngeee~ it's gonna hit one year soon. i'm married at 22 which i never ever imagine. well. u can only plan your life, and God is the one who fix everything. Sayang. i love u till the end!


some of my close friends changed their status too. Yattea & Paly, Ain Roslan, Kema & Khai, Watai, Izyan, Ceah Fasihah.


also i went to Singapore, to visit my grandfather who i haven't seen for almost 10 years with Sayang and Tok. it was our honeymoon plus meeting relatives trip. well, who on earth brought their grandma on their honeymoon's trip aite?!


i enter my final year, in 2009, which seems forever when i was in first year. i need to manage my own patient, answering all the questions by supervisors alone, without a partner to help me. i even need to clean all the instruments used on my own, which makes me leave the clinic at 6 pm almost everyday. it sucks ok! can't wait to move my butt off this school soon! everyone, please pray that my journey will be safe!!!


goodbye 2009. i'm hoping for a better 2010. insyaAllah.

7th SSC

finally it's over. i ended my elective project with a not-so-impressive presentation. but at least it's over. i can finally breath now.

me and  my slides

Kak Teh and Angah was there to support me. thanx dear sisters!!

 

of cause i didn't win. but congratulations to all the winner. i pray that u all will win in the national level. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYA

firstly, i would like to wish "SELAMAT HARI WARGA TUA SYA KENTOT!!! KAMU SUDAH TUA WO!"

Dah hampir 5 tahun saya kenal Sya kentot. dia tetap busuk, suka kentot, sendawa kuat dan suka tido. hehe. of cos i'm lying right. actually, Sya busuk is one of my bestest friend in USM. and she turned 23 today. we celebrated it with a small cake only. (kalau aku kaya sure aku beli indulgence yg besar itu. hukhuk)


Maybe this will be the last year we'll celebrate it in Sya's small room in USM. hopefully next year, Sya will be rich enough to afford a grand birthday party in a 5 star hotel. insyaAllah kan Sya.

Dear SYA,

study hard ok dear. cause i know u can't wait to add the DR in front of your name like i do. so strive for it. 

and i think 23 is still still young to get married. so enjoy your life first. don't feel stress only because others get married. cause the right person for u is out there somewhere, there're just with the wrong person. (please guess the source of this quotes!)

thanx for being there when i needed u. for being my shopping partner, my gossips sources, my driver, my photographer for my wedding, my tukang basuh pinggan, my tukang buat air kopi power masa study time, my movies supplier, my apa lagi ek? ko tambah la ek. May our friendship last forever. 

(to noddy: ko pon sama jgk la ye)

aku byk lagi nak ckp tapi dah lupa la! huhuhu. nanti aku ingat aku update la. hehe

THE DOCTORS

although i didn't consider myself a doctor, my patient still addressed me as one.

1. I gave a talk after I was conferred an honorary degree by the International Medical University. I directed a major part of my talk to the new graduates.


2. I explained that medicine is not just a profession, a qualification for earning a good income. It is a vocation, a calling which involves dedication to the job of healing the sick and caring for them.


3. What their qualification confers upon them is not just a degree but as doctors they have been elevated to a special status and endowed with special powers. They would have in them the capacity to inspire confidence and trust in their patient. The confidence and trust are such that people would literally entrust their lives to them, allowing them to cut open their bodies and do things which could kill if done by others.

4. The skill and the power they acquire owe much to the society in which they were brought up and their access to education up to the highest level. Not all human society can do this. A poor society, an unstable society, an uncaring society would not be able to give them even primary education, much less training to become a doctor. The cost borne by the society is high.Whether they get a scholarship or their parents pay for their education, they all owe a debt to society. It behoves them to repay to society through the service in which they are trained.


5. They should therefore be ready to offer their services to the society in which they lived. It may be by serving the Government or if this is not attractive enough, at least their country. They can earn a good income in Malaysia's private sector.


6. But some easily forget their debt and are easily enticed by higher pay in other countries. These countries paid nothing for their education and training and yet for a little bit more money they get the services of the people we paid a lot to train whether in Government school and universities or in private ones. Quite often the countries which get the service of our doctors are developed and rich.


7. The nation loses a lot when the people we train opts to work in other countries.


8. But the association of doctors make matters worse by refusing entry to foreign doctors to practice. It wants to keep the opportunities for making money in this country to its members only. It does not mind Malaysian doctors going out but foreign doctors may not come in. Only if they work with the Government can they come in.


9. The flow is one-way. Our doctors can leave the country but foreign doctors cannot replace them. We are losing the brains that we develop without the foreign brain coming in.


10. Despite all the Government's efforts we are losing especially the much-needed specialists.


11. There is something wrong here. If the Malaysian Medical Association (MMA) wishes to close the country to outsiders then it should also object to Malaysian doctors from leaving the country. As it is the MMA seem to be wanting to have their cake and to eating it as well.


12. I am not suggesting that as we have embraced globalisation and the free flow of capital etc that we should now allow foreign doctors to come and open their hospitals here. But I do think that if local hospitals need to employ foreign doctors then they should be allowed to. 

source: Che Det

DEAR SIR

Dear Sir,

do u know that there were studies that says "our brain can only focus for 30 minutes, before it goes *&^%&*#". yeah yeah! i know i can't provide u a journal or any articles to u right now. as a prove but i'll try to find it later and e-mail it to u. but what ever!! the thing is, all those studies, really imply to my brain. it's like i was their subject at that time. what a coincident right?!

so, if u let me sit in your lecture for 1 hour! i can still be concious and act like a normal people do. but when u let me sit in your lecture for 2 bloody hours plus waiting for u like a rotten 'wutever' for 2 hours before the actual lecture start, it really make me feels like @#$%^&*!!

so next time, can u please, please try to be in our shoes and feels how we feels. oh! i forgot, u used to be a student too. but u just bare with it cause u were a student. a student must listen, and listen and listen.

hm. i got it now. next time i will try to listen, listen and listen, and listen, and listen, and listen and listen. and dont understand anything!

thank u sir!

Yours truly,

your student

PENJUAL IKAN

in my class there's one 'penjual ikan'. who'll do anything, everything just to be outstanding. oh God. why do i had to encounter such person in my life.

PROPOFOL

i don't like anaest posting. i just don't like it. 

i don't like spending time in operation theatre.

i hate the "friendly" nurses there.

but at least i got to know what propofol did to MJ.

now i wonder what the heck did his doctor think when he gave him propofol.

PLANNER

THINGS TO DO :

1. present 10 cases. 2 case. 1 case to surgeon. 8 7 cases to MO or HO.
2. observe 10 9 operation in ot.
3. prepare seminar or surgical infection and antibiotic.
4. present seminar to Mr Zaidi.
5. attend APDSA in Surabaya.
6. 2 case write up. 1 hand written for Mr Tarmizi.
7. meetingwith Dr Zuliani about CFCS patient.
8. visit family for CFCS.
9. case summary of CFCS to be send by 24/08/08.
10. study for surgical clinical exam on 04/04/08.
11. improve physical examination on patient. its improving!!!
12. balik rumah balik lagi
13. shopping with my Sayang

FUTURE PLAN

1. visit Singapore with Thivya.
2. redang redang redang.
3. get married to my Sayang
4. graduate by 2010
5. be a good dentist

**plus prepare mind. heart and soul to be scold by doc in every clinical session. gambatte NURUL.

I'VE PASS MY EXAM

EVERYONE!! today is like one of the most important day in my life. tha day my result were announced. and im happily and proudly wanna tell everybody that i'd actually pass my professional exam. its mean that i can now proceed my study to the 4th year. im so happy. too happy to describe it in words. oh my god. Thank You ALLAH. for the bless!
to my study partner aka my rakan gelak tawa nangis dan bergossip. thank for helping me yg agak bangang ni. to Dr sya n Dr nodi. i know we can do it.
to Dr Zakuan n Dr Tengku Muzaffar. thank a lot for helping me during my clinical time. i really appreciate u guys. if i were given money for this exam im sure that im willing to share them with u. but i know and will always remember that it can never be paid by money. thanx doc
to my dearest sis Angah sayang. thanx sbb always support kak. thanx sbb tolong beli makanan. thanx angah. kakak sayang angah.
to all my coursemate. congratulation!! we've made it to 4th year. all of us do. see u guys in 4th year. hopefully we'll stay n graduate together. insyaallah!
to those who dont actually make it. i know i wont understand your feeling. but please dont give up. if u think u can than u can (kata-kata prof ravi to my sis)
and to mama and abah and all my family. thanx sbb doakan kakak.
to my sayang. thanx for giving me strength when i was down. for being the shoulder for me to cry.
everyone who i hadnt mention their name but is involved in my life. THANK U!!!

MY EXAM! HOW? WHY?

what is the matter with my exam?! a lots of friend don't actually understand how it is handle. even though i'd explain to them many time. some of my friend still cannot understand how complicated my exam is. meybe some of u have been taking exams just the way that i do. and already understand. but my post today is for those wo didnt really understand

MEQ or modified essay question

this i the paper where all questions are put in one envelope.

u can only takes out one paper at one time. or basically one subquestions.

usually one case will have around4 to 5 sub questions.

u can only take out one subquestion and answer them correctly.

each small questions is to lead u to diagnose the patient's disease.

so u wont know the disease until the last paper u take out.

after finish answering one small question the answer sheet is inserted into another envelope.

then only u can take out the next paper which contain another small question regarding the case.

well. to be more thrill the answer for the question u just inserted into the envelope will be written on top of the sheet of the new questions that u had took out.

if u just answer the previous one correctly, u'll feel ok. but if u were to answer wrongly u'll feel damn frustrated. the common words in my mind is "kenapa la tak terlintas pon benda ni td. i know this!! damn"

MCQ or i dont know.hehe!!

this is the best one.

there are 75 questions with 5 small questions.

so overall there is 375 questions to be answer in 2 and a half hour.

the answer is simple. u should answer TRUE or FALSE.

simple right?!

but the thing is if u were to answer one question incorrectly. 0.5 marks will be deducted from your total mark. for each answer that is wrong minus 0.5

for corraect answer only 1 mark is given.

so u are not encourage to guess.

but for me i 'tembak' a lot.hehe..

use your instincts.

OSCE or something to do with clinical la

there around 21 stations. u'll be placed in the station according to your name.then the bell will ring. that means u can start answering your question for that station.after 5 minutes. the bell will ring again. showing that u have to move to the next station.u have to place your answer sheet in the box provided at that station before moving to answer the questions on the next station.this cycle will go on until u'd finished all 21 stations.pictures, speciment, or anything will be placed at the station and u only have 5 minutes to thing to garu kepala or anything.

clinical

u will have to clerk one patient.

his history. u will not know the patient's diagnosis.

so u have to clerk precisely to actually know the disease

then u will ask to perform physical examination on that patient.

and lastly (my favourite!! uwek!!) discussion dgn doctor.

its suck because u have to face 3 doctors like your having some kind of interview. then they'll ask u questions. regarding the case, the patient or anything under the sun.

tjis is the time where most of my friends including me will suddenly have tought block.

it suck when u know the answer but u cant produce them verbally.

so all of the mark for this exam will be accumulated.

then u'll know your nasib.

wether u'll procede to the next sem.

or u have to stay another year and take the same exams. with different questions of course!!

can u see why im scared of exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STUDY WEEK ACTIVITIES

coklet cair kerna blk yg terlalu panas. terpaksa makan dgn camca.

aktiviti sehat ketika exam. bermain game yg x berkesudahan.

notes. 13 blocks to study. sapa ada soklan bocor?!

megi yg dimasak oleh chef pandai masak..noorole..hehe..megi kari yg dah bertukar jadi megi goreng

USM YANG CANTEK

usm sangat chantek. macam dkt oversea x?! hehe. sgt la perasaan. these are pictures taken at the place where i study with my study mate every evening. it looks calming right. if only malaysia's weather is a lil bit cool than it is now. then this place would be perfect fo everything. even for picnic. anyway, u should know that USM is a university dalam taman. it has lovely compound and is calming. despite the insects tha keep crawling and bitting us and damaging our skins with scars, it is very green. i love usm. but i cant wait to graduate from here in another 2 years of time. insyaAllah.

a boring routine..am i the only one who feel the tension.

a boring routine. i should say that. everyone would agree with me.
since the study weeks start me and my study mate-nodi &sya- have been doing the same thing everyday.

6am
start dreaming. can u actually believe that i sleep at 6am sometime 7am.
after waking up my sayang i will start my beauty sleep.
but now i dont really enjoy the sleep anymore.
sometime i cant hardly sleep.
when i started to close my eyes, every thing that i study come popping up into my mind.
it's so stressing.

11am. hm..sometime 12pm
i wake up. with a hungry tummy crying to be fill with food.
as usual. i'll take a bath and go to the cafe only to see the same food over and over again.
normally i eat a lot. but recently i try to reduce the propotion of food that i take.
scared that i cant really fit into the engagement dress.
then i start to study again~sigh!~

3pm
i have discussion with my study mate.
we do it outside, under the trees, near the fields.
but now the weather is so damn hot that i noticed im a bit tanned then before.
we discuss until we feel like vomiting.

6pm.
time for me to rest.
sometime i have a brisk walk. alone. with mp3 stuck into my ears.
im trying to ease my mind from stress.
i have my dinner. from the same cafe. sometime i ask my sis to buy it from outside.
but this is kelantan we are talking about. n shhh!! i cant elaborate further.
it might be sensitive to some person.
sometime i cook. instant noodle with extra spice and all. what to do. that is the only thing i can cook using the rice cooker my mama gave.
nap nap nap. sometime. very sekejap.

9am.
watch tv some time.
online to write on my dearie bloggie sometime.
surfing sometime.
nap nap nap sometime.

12am.
start the study group again.
more discussion,
we drink coffee to stay awake.

6am.
sleep~

and the cycle start over again and again.
at least until nex week. 11 may~the day of my exam.
can u see how boring my life is now.
but what to do. i have to.
if this is what i have to do to make me able to proceed my study in 4th year.
I doNT mIND

now it's time to talk about PROFESSIONAL exam

i just finish my test just now. so should i say i feel damn relieve because it's over. tp kan the countdown to my PRO exam is getting lesser and lesser. lagi 24 hari ja. so i guess it's not the right time for me to feel relieve la. i hate exam. i hate presenting the case in front of doctors. i like suprises. but not this kind of suprise.

if they tell that is the case then i can prepare. then i'll feel better. what if i were to get the case that is not clear. that i cant diagnosed. that i cant perform the physical examination correctly. i dont like that feeling. i dont wanna have to repeat. it's a painful experience. u'l change once u have to go through that moment. i can see it from the corner of my friends who had gone through it. u wont see it clearly. but somehow u know they change. may be they feel like they dont belong with us who havent gone through it. may be they are just adapting.

but somehow u'll get more mature when u had it. u learn to handle stress. u are much much more ready and experienced when u were to face problems. but for us who hadn't be in your shoes. we think u'd change. eventhough we say hai to each other when we meet. the hai now is different. not like it used to be.

im scared,its scary

i dont like the sense of losing control. i like to be in control. it's just the way i am since before. is it the first child's sydrome?! anyone?!!
i dont like a major changes to happend in my life. i like a normal life. not to plain not to colourful. its just NORMAL.
but what if its fated. what if it is my destiny. will i be able to change it. can i alter my life that had been plan by ALLAH.

whatever it is. im supposed to try my best first right?! im not gonna try. but i will do my best. i'l boost all my energy for this exam. i hope i can make it. but i know one thing for sure. that ALLAH will always Helps those who help themselves.
so i dont wanna missed that chance. i will try to grab it. with best weapon that i have.

by studying smart,hard, and always pray to ALLAH. tawakal.

-friends forever-

exam lagi!

saya penat

pnt sgt

bila exam nak habis ni

dah tak larat

TAPI

pas habis exam ni

i still got another exam to go through

i hope everything's gonna be fine

this exam will be determine wether i can actually proceed to the next level

i'm scared to enter 4th year, to get to handle a real patient

am i capable of doing it

but i'm sick of learning medical stuff

i wanna focus to things that i'd actually chose

i'd spend 3 years learning medical stuff

it is time for me to learn to be a real dentist

but first

i have to go through 'this' first

i hope everyone will pray for me

for us

for SUCCESS

kepenatan study week, lalu tumbuh jerawat yang besar,lalu bosan n bercakap telefon

nodi yang bijak lagi kuat study

bakal professor dean dr sya

all the best everyone

exam! exam! all the best everyone. i hope we all will strive and achieve what ever we had and always dream of.

i'l pray for u

SINCERELy. i will.

ALL THE BEST!!!

exam mood-ting tong-chenta chenta

exam mood?!! izzit?!! am i in the exam mood. its almost 5am in the morning and im stuck on in front of the pc typing, surfing, and most of the time wandering into other people's blogs. without actualy have the exact things to do. i should study now. not wasting my time writing on a blog that people dont actually even give a peek

have u ever feel distress until u r not stress anymore. i think the stress is so much that i am already disensitized to it.

being a dental student who actually have to compulsarily learn medical kinda distress me a lot. anyway i'd gone almost 3 years of learning em.knda have enough stress that i cant feel any stress any more. that is so so bad. i need the stress now to urge me on studying more more hard than before. this exam will actually determine wether i can further my study to nex sem or not. i should study. mesti study.berusaha! berusaha!

i cant wait until this june. where i had pass my exam n just getting ready for the big day.hm.cant wait.eventhough the big day stil dint allow me to do the thing that i cant do now.im still lookng forward it..wish me luck ok!!!its a big phase in my life. its a promise that must be fulfill due to respect and love.

i think i should stop being on the air right now.its not the time yet. i need to focus..

F.O.C.U.S

but still i cant stop thinking of the day.hehe..sayang... i cant wait..everyone! please pray for me.

for my HAPPINESS n SUCCESS.

pro pro pro

there are another 89 days til pro.i cant believe it.i think i've only prepared like5% or even less.hahahhaa..im getting crazy.last holiday was full with rnjoying stuffs tat i forget to study aiyak..shopping,dating watching movies thats all i've done.huhu..everyone.plis give me advice and courage so tat i can still be strong to study for my exam.hm..my plan after pro was even bizzare.there are a lots of stuff and thngs to do.place to visits and manymore.the list are endless. but i must first go through the exam and pass it with flying colours.insyaallah. well everyone plis pray for me k..pray tat we'll together success in everythg tat we do.mmuah..love u all