ANOTHER DAY THAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH

hari ni kelas habis awal. so masa tengah tunggu bus tu. i snap some pictures to be upload in this blog. tulis blog rajin. study malas. and i can feel like this is the longest weekend i ever had. very tiring.

HKB yg dilawati from Sunday to Wednesday, from 8am to 4pm. tiring lo!

surau tempat merehatkan diri at lunch hour. sleep. sleep. sleep. and to my friend : saya masih baik untuk tidak menyiarkan gambar anda ketika sedang tidor nyenyak.

after the class finish, semua orang menerpa membeli buah. sedap.sekarangkan panas.

saya yang sewel. sakit kepala sbb berdiri lama sangat. tolong bagitau saya apa solution untuk soar feet. especially tumitku yang sakit sgt sebab kena berdiri lama. ni belum start posting surgery. nnt mesti lagi teruk. aiyak!

posing with dearest roomate dekat dpn HKB. hari2 kitorang lintas jalan ni. walaupun penat we are still in mood to post. gilak!

i miss them so much. everytime i go home they seems different. they seem to grow fast. semakin lama semakin tinggi and cakap pon semakin banyak.

this is the youngest. adik arash sayang. rindu kamu

POSTING PAEDIATRIC

pelikkan. kata posting dekat pediatric. tp ni dkt radiology department. actually kitorang tgh tunggu nak tengok patient undergo procedure dkt dept tu. he was only 1 years old. and already have to gone through such a procedure. sgt sedih. tetapi terlalu letih utk berfikir. seeing a catheter inserted in him is even painful. the doctor had to poke for up to 4 times before finally berjaya. dah la their size is so small. then susah plk nak buat procedure macam tu. luckily im not taking medicine. sgt susah.

yan posing in front of the radio dept at HKB

waiting for the patient's turn to undergo radiology procedure.

sepatutnya saya cerita apa itu MCU or micturating cysto uretrogram. tp saya pon dah tak ingat. hehe. yang saya tau. the patient had tu undergo this procedure because he had UTI. so they want to see wether there is reflux of the urine from the bladder to the ureter or the kidney. so they need to insert contrast into the urinary bladder and see through the radiograph if there is reflux and the extend of it. terima kaseh. saya rasa saya betol. correct me if im wrong.

*happy birthday to cik ain kamalia. today u dah 22. bila kamu nak besar ek?! and happy belated birthday to cik fatin nor. kemarin dia pon dah jadi 22. tua la kamu.

AFTER 1 MONTH

its been a month now sayang since u & me make a promise. a promise i will keep. its full of dreams and hopes. i love u more each day.

miss u so much sweetheart

MY NAME IS NURUL FAHIZHA!

it freaks me out. everything it said is me.its me. i know it is talking bout me. ouh know. how come it can predict me.

What Nurul Fahizha Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

POSTING AT HKB

blurry. that's the word to desribe how i feel today. i was so blur with everything. i forgot how to clerk patient. how to do examination on them. i for got everything. even when im looking at the patient's folders i was so blurred. i dont remember a thing. the investigations form was so alien to me. i was so sure that i didnt throw out any part of my brain. and i was so sure that i never had any incident of concusion during the holiday. so where did i put all things that i'd studied last time. it seems lost somewhere. please.anyone who found it. please return it back to me. saya sangat perlukan all the knowledge.

posting paediatric hari ni masih lagi relax. i only clerk one patient. AGE's patient. i didnt do any examination because im still in orientation mood. hoho. well. i hope everything when smoothly. im so scared to hear that doctors dkt surgery department sangat garang. saya dah le tak pandai mana. kalau saya blur masa depa tanya camna. mati la saya. dah la saya ni lack of self confident. pastu cpt blur pulak tu. what to do.

paediatric patient mmg different from adult patient. when i followed the ward round i can see that PE sgt susah. hoho. takutnya saya.

one the bus from HKB to our dearest hostel. stay there from 0800 til 1630

hari yg sgt panas. makan kacang kuda.

kafe dekat HKB. cheap!! i can say.

p/s- i miss this cecewi-s so much. adik hezryn, adik arash and adik ayu

KB MALL-SETELAH SEBULAN TAK DIKUNJUNG

how i miss kb mall so much ( what a lie). hari ni saya shopping kb mall. habiskan duit jpa saya. my head was spinning at that time. i didnt take any pain killer. because i think it is because of the stress. so i decided to go shopping in kb mall with angah, nodi and sya. we took bus instead of renting cars.kami menyahut seruan kerajaan. with the minyak now so mahal plus the traffic jam on the way from Kubang Kerian to KB. its better to take bus or cab rather than drive yourself there. it only cost RM1 from Kbg Kerian to KB Mall.

when we got there my head is still spinning round and round. tp after looking at the baju and everything.i can feel that 50% of my head weight is gone. im so lifted to see all the discount tags everywhere. i dont know what is the occasion but it seems like there are sales everywhere. and im so delighted. well. i bought i pair of khakis slack from applemint and 2 nicole's shirts. hoho. so gila right. with my scholar tak masuk lg. it is consider gila. hehe.

plus. i also bought comforter for my new bed and lotsa food.

my shopping stuff. penuh satu troli. gilak

after that we ate at mcD. the onion ring was nice. sedap. and ice cream is so perfect when we were stressfull

and kitorang balik dgn kereta sapu = RM18. agak mahal. still kena bayar. because we cant take bus. dgn barang byk mcm tu.

p/s- if u were wondering kenapa pictures' at my blog all terbalik2. it is because im so lazy to edit the picture. and im hoping that blogspot can allow us to edit picture in here. can we?

STEAMBOAT

mari memakan steam boat. today. jun, hajar, citah, n kak bai cook steam boat. n rezeki saya sgt murah sbb telah diajak untuk menjadi PTS *love it*. its very delicious and superb banyak. n anyone who knows me. sure know how much i can eat. i ate so much. right now i can still feel my stomach so full ( dah sampai peparu dah makanan td. sungguh hyperbola) thanx everyone. it is sungguh sedap.

steamboat hostel

bad news. angah's room for this year is in a different block from me. which is very very suck. nanti susah la nak buli angah. saya menci. saya menci. nodi n sya sure got the same block. that one i'd predicted before. so dont really feel the stump on my heart. apakah ayat ini.

and i miss everyone at home including my sayang. my feeling right now is just like how i feel when i was in first year. masa orientation week. i was so home sick. right now im feeling it. and i hate it. having to know that angah's room so far away. just make me feel more home sick. and even sad. damn i cant wait to finish my study. i wanna graduate fast. become a dentist. and hopefully. get out from this place. i just wanna be home.

IM BACK IN USM

dah 5 hari kat sini. this is my clinical orientation week. and it is damn bored. and it is damn stressful. im so stress knowing to know that i have to do a lot of thing. and learning medicine for another 3 months really stress me up. ingat kan dah tak payah belajaq medic. and sapa kata tak payah. payah la. payah. hoho. payah=very difficult.

plus our posting will be in Hospital Kota Bharu. we ought to take bus at 7am. and stay in HKB until 6pm. from sunday til wednesday. and on thursday we'll be having clinic. and this thursday im gonna meet my first patient. but she dont have to be worry because im only going to do examination on her. tp takut jugak. am afraid that i'll poke her with the probe.

to add more stress. today we got a book. a log book. written there the requirement that we need to fulfill in 2 years time. byk nak mati. and byk gila procedure to be taken before we could actually start anything. nak ambik barang kena isi borang. nak panggil patient we have to isi form. so much to do with ISO and all the birokrasi. but still we have to learn. nak jadi professional. so we must work like a professional.

layak kah diri ini. a question that i always questioned myself.

hm.. first posting=paediatric. the idea of playing with kids and seeing them suffering in pain just make me stress more. i hope i can handle them well. i havent clerk any patient for almost 2 month. dont really know wether i can still remember the procedure.

**happy belated birthday to my cousin nashrah. who already turned 22 on 29th june and to nab dearie, good luck with your clinical year.

roomate kini dan selamanya. miss ain a.j! blur ini ialah style

i swear i miss this fatty so much

p/s- i might not have time to update my blog next time. *sigh*

TAK MAU BLK!!

malas. damn. i feel so lazy to go back to kelantan. living the comfort of my home. living my family, my sayang. mama's cooking. im gonna go back to a place where i have to everything by myself. eat in the cafe. which kinda suck cause the foods there are totally different from my taste. im a kedahan. i eat spicy food. i dont go for sweet char koey teow. and white-nonspicy tomyam. its true that not all food there are sucks. some of the foods there are also nice to eat. but there's nothing in the world that could beat mom's cooks. eventhough it's simple, i still crave for em. and tambah nasi banyak kali. hehe.

and the laundry. argh!!! i hate it so much. i wish i had a washing machine inside my room. then i can wash my clothes easily. i dont have to kumpul theam and carry the heavy bakul to the laundry place. hate it. hate it.

okla. enough of the bable about not wanting to go home.

today i spend my time with my Sayang watching Wanted. the movie where there's angelina jolie in it. its an action movie. i love it. and of cause my Sayang love it. he only love to watch that kind of movie. well. the movie is about assassin. the training was superb. and i wonder i u can actually shoot a gun the way they shot it in that movie. they kinda hit the target when there are halangan in front of the thingy. the bullet will just belok and straight to the target. i know la this is a fiction movie. but can this actually happends in real life? can someone answer me?

after that we have dinner at McD. can i say that me n my Sayang rarely eat at McD. i dont know why. we are not boycotting the restaurant. we just rarely eat at that place. maybe its because in Sungai Petani we have to go to central square to eat at McD. and i hate going to CS except for the movie. because that's the only place in SP that have movie theatre. better than none. i hope there will build another McD somewhere else in SP. then i didnt have to go to CS to just have a burger in McD.

NOTHING

hari ni takdak mood. sbb dah nak kena blk kelantan tercenta. malas. huhu..

GOOD LUCK KAK TEH

kak teh was out in Lumut, Perak for the national choir competition 2008. and she and her friends are representing Kedah. can u believe it my former school SMK Convent Father Barre actully representing Kedah in national level. i cant believe it. who knows such a small school can do such a big thing. (am i overexpressing it or what???!!.hehehe) saya bangga sebenaqnya.

kak teh should be proud because she is following my mom's footstep. who is also a conventian of the same school, who actually represent Kedah with her choir group in 1970s (i forgot the actual year) its not easy for a family to repeat history. and kak teh's doing it.

i hope they win. i hope my school win. i hope Kedah win. tomorrow is the day.

menggedik

and another version of us

p/s-kak teh said lumut's coverage for hp is damn bad. maybe org kuning tak suka dudok situ.hm..

SHOPPING AT SUNWAY WITH AYU

angah kentot, ayu cute, kak teh poyo


obviously kakak n ayu

ayuni trisha binti huzainol hisham n arash badrishah bin huzainol hisham

SANGGUP

hari ni hujan. it was very dark outside. hujan lebat sangat

and i was on the bus to butterworth. to see someone worth in my life.

MY BRAIN STATUS-B.L.A.N.K and ZERO!

that is all i can say right now. blank

my 5 weeks of holiday is gonna end soon. in 5 days. cpt nya. tak nak blk. i wanna stay at home. but i kena blk jugak. i've to strive. now that im engage i should not be lazy anymore. i must change other people's perception that love will only destroy your study.

back to the topic. i think this is the reason why medical student are not supposed to have long holiday. their brain will just go 'karat' due to long time of unusage. thus causing slowness in thinking, calculating and even knowing other people's name.

i think that is what happening to me. during this cuti i did no serious reading. EXCEPT blogs, newspapers, magazines and more magazine and more magazine and more blog. that's all i read. i watch tv a lot n during this 5 weeks i'd watch 3 movies, Indiana Jones, Incredible Hulk and Get Smart. i'd spend a lot of money to buy coffee not to stay up to study but to be awake and watch tv and surfing the net.

hurm.. i think my brain must be very grateful to me, because it hasnt been force to do a lot of work recently. none. the movie that i watch are simple movies that didnt require me to think a lot. and driving in sungai petani didnt really need u to think where to go, how to cilok that cars and so on. so my brain usage is equal to ZERO.

my memory are even worse. i dont need to memorize anything, now that im so free. sometime i even forget what time to pick up my sister. a simple one.

i hope after the new sem start the lil brain can wakes up and do what is supposed and used to do. be a good student (liar.hehe..) hope the 'karat' and damage is not so bizzare and can be fix easily.

im so nervous to enter 4th year of my study. my clinical year. but yet im looking forward of it. hope everything will go smoothly. my life should be simple. not miserable.

i'll miss u a lot

TERGURIS

aku ni mcm nak menunjuk ke? salah ke aku bg tau. slh ke aku ngaku benda yg betul. benda yg elok. argh.. terasa hati!! tp aku pon tak penah heran dgn hati org. silap aku. jujur sgt. i just appreciate honesty so damn much.

just be cool. bkn jumpa dah pon pas ni. tak jemput pon tak pa. pernah tak dijemput. walaupun aku jiran. dosa. tapi org herankah?!

aku terguris ni. perlukah. tp aku terasa.

im not trying to show off pon. im informing sahabat ku.

well. its not worth pon terasa hati. people just dont care. like u. yg tak kisah pasal others

hm..still terasa.

TRUE FRIENDS

4years out of school. friendship are build around me. some friendship from school are still remain tight and even tighter. some of them were build after school time. but as life goes on. we become more matture. and appreciate friendship more. BESTFRIENDs are friends that we share our secrets with. we dont judge each other. but we are happy with each others life. now we dont feel envy or jealous when she talk about her life, about her boyfriends. we share the story and even the experience. with our friends' experience we learn. its more about giving and receiving. life now its not like what it is used to be when we were in school.

sometime peolpe wonder why secrets are not been shared with them. why arent they inform about certain story that we shares with certain people. the answer is simple. it is just because u dont share your story with me. what are u hopuing when u are not doing the same thing.

im not writing this to actually point to somebody.

i only write what i feel.

love u!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Happy birthday to dear ruzi sayang which was yesterday n naliny sayang which was on 20th. sweeeeet 22..hehe..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME

happy birthday to me. well my birthday was 2days ago. im 22 alreadt. old. or should i say wiser. hehe.. saya dah tua. nope. saya dah matang. konon!

am proud to be 22.

am trying to be more mature.

am wanna be the better.

am missing my dear fiancee...

ENGAGEMENT PICTURES

future maktam and makteh

nodi, me, sya-superb photographer aka my best friends

well..i call him oftenly.huhu..hm..my phone on my selendang




me with one of the hantaran from sayang. chocolate indulgence..



me


me with hantarans from sayang's family

future mom in law




well. these are some of the pictures from the ceremony. i would love to upload everything. there are a lot of pictures. may be i'll upload em in my fp yang dah usang tu. u can also see some of the pictures in my friends fp http://isyania.fotopages.com or my aunty's http://mymystiquememory.fotopages.com which will be uploading later. or even my friendster.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

abah (right) and his friend during his year as army officer

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY ABAH!
i love u so much. thanx for being my father. for making breakfast for us. may be it sounds weird that my abah is the one who is making breakfast for us instead of mama. but it is just bacause he loves it so much. he loves helping mama. how i wish my future husband will treat me the same way that abah do.
Abah rarely get mad. he's the quite type. if u met him on the first time u might think he is sombong. but if u get to know him better u'll know that he's as ramah as me. he just need time to really get to know u. thats why most of my friends are knows my mama better than my Abah.
Abah rarely get mad. but once he get angry at us. u'll know what u get. may be no breakfast. or no treat. he'l suddenly become damn quite. extra quite. until u get uncomfie with it.
Abah. i can say that he's a type B person. more relax. more calm. compare to Mama. but they make a perfect couple. at least when Mama freaks out. Abah will try to calm her. most of the time it is like that.
Abah. we love u so much. thanx Abah. Happy Abah's Day!

ENGAGED

courtesy of kelly!

070608- im engaged to my dear sayang. im sorry that i didnt get the chance to invite everyone to the engagement ceremony. i'll sure invite u to my wedding ceremony. i'll upload the pictures when i got the chance.

alhamdulillah. the event went smooth. without me tripping down sbb tepijak kain. except that i was so nervous that i forgot the exact way to smile.huhu!! i was so nervous that i can feel my lips trembling everytime i tried to smile. pergh!!! this was so not what im thinking. so i end up making my pictures look hideous. plus i look extra garang. (well..i am garang!! hehehe..)

anyway, i would like to thank my family. my mama who's so kalot on that day. my aunty teh for making the hantaran. aunty cik thanx make up kan kakak. all my uncles and aunties for helping me. atuchu..thanx for the hantaran. serious npk real. hehe. my friends for being there for me. for being my photographer, mak andam tudung, peneman tika cincin disarung. for the hugs and kisses. my neighbours! thanx. my sayang's family. my sayang. love u so much. i cant wait until we get marry.

I'VE PASS MY EXAM

EVERYONE!! today is like one of the most important day in my life. tha day my result were announced. and im happily and proudly wanna tell everybody that i'd actually pass my professional exam. its mean that i can now proceed my study to the 4th year. im so happy. too happy to describe it in words. oh my god. Thank You ALLAH. for the bless!
to my study partner aka my rakan gelak tawa nangis dan bergossip. thank for helping me yg agak bangang ni. to Dr sya n Dr nodi. i know we can do it.
to Dr Zakuan n Dr Tengku Muzaffar. thank a lot for helping me during my clinical time. i really appreciate u guys. if i were given money for this exam im sure that im willing to share them with u. but i know and will always remember that it can never be paid by money. thanx doc
to my dearest sis Angah sayang. thanx sbb always support kak. thanx sbb tolong beli makanan. thanx angah. kakak sayang angah.
to all my coursemate. congratulation!! we've made it to 4th year. all of us do. see u guys in 4th year. hopefully we'll stay n graduate together. insyaallah!
to those who dont actually make it. i know i wont understand your feeling. but please dont give up. if u think u can than u can (kata-kata prof ravi to my sis)
and to mama and abah and all my family. thanx sbb doakan kakak.
to my sayang. thanx for giving me strength when i was down. for being the shoulder for me to cry.
everyone who i hadnt mention their name but is involved in my life. THANK U!!!

MY EXAM! HOW? WHY?

what is the matter with my exam?! a lots of friend don't actually understand how it is handle. even though i'd explain to them many time. some of my friend still cannot understand how complicated my exam is. meybe some of u have been taking exams just the way that i do. and already understand. but my post today is for those wo didnt really understand

MEQ or modified essay question

this i the paper where all questions are put in one envelope.

u can only takes out one paper at one time. or basically one subquestions.

usually one case will have around4 to 5 sub questions.

u can only take out one subquestion and answer them correctly.

each small questions is to lead u to diagnose the patient's disease.

so u wont know the disease until the last paper u take out.

after finish answering one small question the answer sheet is inserted into another envelope.

then only u can take out the next paper which contain another small question regarding the case.

well. to be more thrill the answer for the question u just inserted into the envelope will be written on top of the sheet of the new questions that u had took out.

if u just answer the previous one correctly, u'll feel ok. but if u were to answer wrongly u'll feel damn frustrated. the common words in my mind is "kenapa la tak terlintas pon benda ni td. i know this!! damn"

MCQ or i dont know.hehe!!

this is the best one.

there are 75 questions with 5 small questions.

so overall there is 375 questions to be answer in 2 and a half hour.

the answer is simple. u should answer TRUE or FALSE.

simple right?!

but the thing is if u were to answer one question incorrectly. 0.5 marks will be deducted from your total mark. for each answer that is wrong minus 0.5

for corraect answer only 1 mark is given.

so u are not encourage to guess.

but for me i 'tembak' a lot.hehe..

use your instincts.

OSCE or something to do with clinical la

there around 21 stations. u'll be placed in the station according to your name.then the bell will ring. that means u can start answering your question for that station.after 5 minutes. the bell will ring again. showing that u have to move to the next station.u have to place your answer sheet in the box provided at that station before moving to answer the questions on the next station.this cycle will go on until u'd finished all 21 stations.pictures, speciment, or anything will be placed at the station and u only have 5 minutes to thing to garu kepala or anything.

clinical

u will have to clerk one patient.

his history. u will not know the patient's diagnosis.

so u have to clerk precisely to actually know the disease

then u will ask to perform physical examination on that patient.

and lastly (my favourite!! uwek!!) discussion dgn doctor.

its suck because u have to face 3 doctors like your having some kind of interview. then they'll ask u questions. regarding the case, the patient or anything under the sun.

tjis is the time where most of my friends including me will suddenly have tought block.

it suck when u know the answer but u cant produce them verbally.

so all of the mark for this exam will be accumulated.

then u'll know your nasib.

wether u'll procede to the next sem.

or u have to stay another year and take the same exams. with different questions of course!!

can u see why im scared of exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG!

sayang kamu

window shopping

picnic time

happy birthday sayang

on the ferry to penang. i dah lama tak naik ferry. romantika kah?! haha!!

Actually my dearest's sayang birthday is last month. but due to the busyness of study week i dont really have time to actually post this. well. he's 29 this year. the first time we ever celebrate a birthday together. and we will celebrate em again and again. InsyaAllah! there's nothing special about the day except that the time that we'd spend together which is so precious. as i get to see him only once a month. the rest of the time we are only connected through the phone.

we picnic at batu feringgi, penang, its a nice place. but sadly and frankly to say the sea there is not so pretty and clean anymore. but it's not that bad.

happy birthday sayang!

STUDY WEEK ACTIVITIES

coklet cair kerna blk yg terlalu panas. terpaksa makan dgn camca.

aktiviti sehat ketika exam. bermain game yg x berkesudahan.

notes. 13 blocks to study. sapa ada soklan bocor?!

megi yg dimasak oleh chef pandai masak..noorole..hehe..megi kari yg dah bertukar jadi megi goreng

USM YANG CANTEK

usm sangat chantek. macam dkt oversea x?! hehe. sgt la perasaan. these are pictures taken at the place where i study with my study mate every evening. it looks calming right. if only malaysia's weather is a lil bit cool than it is now. then this place would be perfect fo everything. even for picnic. anyway, u should know that USM is a university dalam taman. it has lovely compound and is calming. despite the insects tha keep crawling and bitting us and damaging our skins with scars, it is very green. i love usm. but i cant wait to graduate from here in another 2 years of time. insyaAllah.